I wanted to have fun
be like the others
I’ve always stayed home by myself
been good
I like being that way
but this summer—July
I wanted your attention
I wanted you to like me like you did her
and I knew she wasn’t like me
she was a partier
so maybe if I “laid back” a little, let lose
took some drinks— just a few
that you’d like me more
it didn’t work
you didn’t care
I left you though
because you weren’t ever really with me
and I took more poison and I swallowed it dry
and that’s nothing like me
I don’t drink
but I guess that’s not true now
ouch
wish I could say it still was
I can’t believe the mistakes I’ve made
it’s done and over with
it’s done
time to move on
and improve
no more being a different person
time to be me again
no more posion
~Ava Stevens