i think sometimes why this all is happening ,why u have to go through all this idiotic hell emotions that leftt ur eyes to wet and ur mind to heat up like some burden is upon it, everyone seems to happy more when pain surrounds u,though it's good that they r smiling but ur lost smile makes u jealous on other second and then again u hate urself..why this sadness seem like that darkness whose dawn is late so then u also want to have " late " before ur name,and then suddenly u forgot all ur aim ,the faces that surround you earlier gives happiness, now gives u more rage as u want to get out of all this and left everything but then hope of those faces pulls u back and so this all seems to be never-ending,and the efforts to sort everything left u bare handed as now hope is less and u feel more weak,want to ignore but can't...so a thought came to ur mind that, when u can't control the things ,then someone in another world will take ur leash of pain and sort the things but inside u know it might happen or just an illusion arising from ur grief..