I was feeling very depressed about myself so I need to take a break from home and want to go away from home. Because I had lost my hope and was afraid of loneliness, fear was with me. I ate and drank nothing for many days. So, I decided to take a break from home. Several days ago, I was feeling afraid of loneliness and myself. On 10 August, my tests were near I had a premonition that my marks on tests were few. That truly happened only in one subject which was good marks. It was happening because I was getting insane I had a feeling that I had to kill myself and do a suicide jump in our house water tank I was feeling furious at myself.
"You've done nothing good work in real life you have to improve yourself," I said to myself.
My mother was stressed about me. I played a game about a murder mystery I feel upset " If I could not play that could not happen to me" I said to myself.
My soul was walking around the depth areas of water tanks, rivers seas and underwater etc. My willingness in life and my wishes were dead I wanted to go very far in fields and mountains. I had a feeling that I wanted to die...I wanted to die.....somewhere.
But I...