He acted almost perfect at first, He would have definitely put me first back then, Back when is the question, well once again at first but that changed after almost two months he started doing stuff and not acting like himself. I felt something was wrong I also felt like I should have left him back then, after he hit my friend's vehicle because he was jealous I felt like I should have left him back but when we got into a fight and he said he was going to make it right. I put my guard down again but I put my guard down too soon this, I should have knew a lot was off when he totally changed, however I do think part of me knew something was wrong.
I decided to come home early from work even know I definitely didn't want to see him because he was acting like a big jerk, I can't decide if I regret coming home early from work or not now I know something I didn't know before but I feel so sick and hurt.
I'm almost angry but who wouldn't be I found him cheating and doing drugs with her but he's a good father, I don't want to be selfish by leaving him because he is so good with our kid.
I can't do it I can't leave him, but I am to the point where I want to do something back, the drugs I would have never expected.
The cheating I did wonder about, I was actually ninety percent sure about.
It still hurts that he is cheating on me and then acts like I'm the one who's crazy, however I need to keep it together for our kid our kid doesn't not need to know what is actually going on.
I know this would crush our kid a lot just like it crushes me.