I have been thinking a lot. That's pretty much what I do anyways. I try to think positive, but it's really hard when I only get hurt. I just don't understand why be with someone that's not what you want in the first place? It seems like no one really wants me, only what I can give them. It's like everyone regrets me after awhile, that's why they always start looking for someone else. Yes I understand that I have problems and why would anyone wants someone that has unhealed past trauma? I'm trying my...