My Monsters and Demons are real and alive. They walk among others ever day wearing a mask. Hiding me from all other life as me back in the dark woods. This world is blinded. But not all. I set at the window looking, watching, waiting for their return how I beg my God to bring his might hand down upon them do what he may. For they do know and understand what they do. I ask how could one turn to look and be so. What happened? What did they do? Did they sell their souls? They may be in a human body as I. But are they? How do they walk into the day light among others, How they play so much more at night. The things there hands do to not only I but to others. Something must happen I know at once upon a time they to had a heart a spirit. When you look into their eyes it's empty, hollow, darkness. It's such Joy to them to see us in pain. They dance celebrate when blood falls to the ground.
We know we must do as we are told. Dare not to stand up for your self if you don't want there hands or a knife, gun, bat, or for them to have their way with you. Don't ask for anything it's pointless. If they take you out with them it's for business you better do as they tell you and how. Funny businesses keep your mouth shut Head down. That's what we are to do. What is wrong with me I asked my self every day. I try follow their rules, somereason ,somewhere deep inside me I couldn't tell you. I tell myself don't but something else takes over me. Yes, I pay for it later but I feel alive not Dead inside anymore. I always hear a voice in my head telling me you'll be fine I am always with you Trust me. You can say I am out of my head, what ever but to me it's the Holy spirit of my King. Maybe I should fear them At one time yes but now No I have someone Way bigger, bader, more powerful than they are. I know this is pointless from you it's your choose pray not only for us but for there forgiveness with us tonight. They to at one time was just as we are.
My monsters and demons They look just as you and me. Matt is 5ft11ins brown hair blue eyes when his eyes turn almost black this I know he will hurt me. I'm a stupid bitch, He sounds like a wild animal how he laughs when he sees me on the floor bleeding, Yes, I am dumb for doing so. It doesn't hurt as it once did in the beginning, it doesn't phase me anymore. I dare not try to run again for one I can't my body has gotten weaker. God is always taking care of me. I don't understand why, don't need to know why I am here what God's reasons May be. What these people don't know, maybe after I write this Just how much they messed there bed up it can't be made back up. God as my guide every second stuff I have already turned in on them and still. God will put a end to this I believe, I trust, I know without a Shadow of doubt that it's going to happen. All is needed from me to never loose my faith. Forgive me Don't take my words wrong try to understand I don't trust no man or woman I have no doubt that yes indeed there's good people out in this world. Right now I can't bring my self to trust any. I know I will never be right in the world's eyes that doesn't bother me because I was never doing this for them I've always done all for him. I'm going to end this I know it's very hard to forgive others even when someone had done very hurtful things to you. But you can It took me praying, giving it to him it doesn't matter if you've been raped, beaten, ect.. If I can, and I go through this stuff every day. You can. It helps you grow, I feel stronger, I can't put into words what I feel inside. If you don't forgive them you won't be forgiven,if you want to move forward better your self you can't if you Carry your past with you.
© carolyn L Barbe