For the longest time I've been trying to elucidate that one does not become a good person overnight, your character is forged, altered and moulded from the hand of cards you were dealt with, the decisions you've made and the things you hold dear. You dont become dexterous overnight. You dont become a good cook overnight, you dont learn spices and cuisine from surplus, you learn it in the times you had nothing else but to create something exquisite out of little. You dont learn to forgive overnight, you have to undergo lessons of betrayal, passing blame, own vindictiveness and deep seated pain. You don't become kind overnight, you have to be in a position of vulnerability, nothingness and disappointment in order to never make another person feel that way. You don't learn detachment overnight, you have to battle with attachment before you realise that it's not healthy to attach/leech on someone till you suck out every care they have for you out of their being.
Similarly, you dont develop habits, vices or immorality overnight.
It becomes etched into our beings from the media, the people around us, our disadvantages we've had in our childhoods.
Why are we pleasure seekers? Because we lack something internally and only the temporary highs fill the void fleetingly. Personally, I'm working on shopaholism and compulsive buying, I used to work myself to the bone just to pacify my innermost being for the things I've never had growing up. I basically shot myself in the foot because I took advantage of my own hard work, no one else's but my own.
I threw my own hard earned money down the drain. Why? Because I needed to fix the cracks on the inside. Lessons you can only learn on for yourself, by yourself.
Our society is so broken that narcissists, sociopaths, egomaniacs are not attracted to other cut-throat people rather they feed off the passive natured people who they know will take a beating with no form of retaliation.
Our world is so broken that people do not focus on fixing themselves, they sooner choose to destroy the good that they see in others.
There are idle minds out there who thrive out of drama, humiliation and slander. When people sense that there is a liberated aura about you, they hate you, they despise progression. If they notice that you've picked yourself out of a pit you were in, they judge you and try to set you back.
I've always been highly intuitive, as a child I would wonder how I was saved from situations that were totally incomprehensible.
It's not cause I'm gifted or special but it's because I am highly intune with my emotions and the emotions of those around me. I am easily broken but I can repair myself, dust off and get back up stronger than ever, that's my power. What's yours?
The other thing is that, I am aware of my own vices and I work on them daily. I'm am my own biggest judge, I talk myself out of anger, resent and rage. I instead talk myself into improvement and positivity.
I hate myself when I hurt another person intentionally or unintentionally. Can you do the same?
I learn lessons over and over till the objective slaps me across the face.
One thing I've learned very harshly is that the term "friend" or "family" should only be used reasonably, from a person who used to call everyone "friend", I've now, being fed up of being cut so deeply, that I have become stringent of who I let into my space. What's your kryptonite? Are you still stuck in complacency or are you willing to become valuable to yourself and those around you?

-Memoirs of Maryannable's Mashables
M.M
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