It's been a month in quarantine, today was my birthday, so i woke up with ful of energy, i should be happy, no, i wanted to be happy. I woke with a smile for a new year in my age. I am 26, where is my presents? What did you bring to me? I was just joking. I knew that they impose a curfew. But im happy, i wanted to be happy. "I didn't know why she is happy," "she became 26 and she didn't marry", "you became so old, the girl in your age became grandmother. You will stay alone" . "No one will look at you". These was the words that i heard in my birthday, Imagine in my birthday.
I get back to my room. Closed the door after screaming and started weeping and confusing  myself that Im 26, im not old, im so young, im a girl with a huge dreams . I dont want to be a woman with 5 children. I need to live for my dreams.life doesn't stop on a man, i can do it. I want to do it. But on other times  i sat alone and that feeling of afraid to regret controls me. What about killing yourself, What is the end? these sounds keep coming to my mind , are they an advice from demons.


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