The year was 2018…
I had just started out My Ministry Full-Time and I was dedicated to the detail. Faithful to encouraging people, faithful to especially releasing Music and psyched on this new journey.
Then things on the Music side didn’t work out in the set timelines and I was at the verge of giving up. I did all I could to at least have something out, but nothing.
I was in distress and I was asking GOD why HE had called me into a Ministry that HE wasn’t going to allow to work.
I prayed and cried out to GOD and HE gave me an answer in form of a question.
GOD speaks to me in questions a lot.
Of late I have noticed the “Multiple Choiced” ones.

GOD asked me if serving HIM was restricted to my singing alone. I did not understand what this was about because since I was a child, that’s all I did in service to HIM, or so I thought.
And so, I started being more attentive.
I realized that I love talking to people about GOD, #DailyVibes #GoldenHope.
I realized I love Preaching to my house… #IPityMyNeighbours.
I realized I typed really long captions on my Posts and this was my “Aha!! Moment.”

I love writing, since I was a child. From my name, to where I come from, to the names of my Family Members, to writing letters, to writing Songs and Poems, to expressing myself to people, to keeping Journals, have I written!
Then I remembered my Mum nurtured this in me from the days I wrote on her wall with chalk or charcoal then cleaning it off so fast, when I sensed her approaching, thinking she had not seen my cheeky.
But when did anything go past Mums?

I noticed she would just give me Writing Pads, Note Books and many Pens.
Then one time she told me how she would see me rub off the wall so fast when I heard her coming and that is why she kept me busy with the gifts.
I used them well for sure and she added me some more just recently, Tihi!!

This is me taking this opportunity to talk about her and she will be mentioned here a lot, I can bet.
Mums are precious and I owe her for who I am and can do today.

I digress…

So here I was asking GOD, now how do we start a Blog?
I went out on research mode and thought to myself to have a Website so that all the Ministry facets are under one roof.
I mean, because all the other Blogging Sites did not fulfill my fancy… *insert eye roll to the back of your head*
The beginning of my excuses…

I knew websites are so expensive to set up and so I started to build one myself using an App.
I was on it day and night and I finished it, but did not really like it, and I also wanted it to come with my Domain Name.
All the while forgetting I had been sent on a mission, not to create a Website with a Personal Domain Name, or a fancy one at that, but to start a Blog. To write to make HIM Disciples and to Inspire.

Then this year started and I could feel HIS gentle nag for the same.
Excuse this time? I would start it later when a certain project was out of my way, and I had full attention on it.
But GOD has a way of bringing HIMSELF to your attention.
Then this stay at home vibe forcefully came by and HE asked, have I given you enough time now?
Of course yes!
Most weird way guys… Waaaaaaauuuu just waaaauuuu!!

See how we deviate from the plans of GOD?
HE sends us on a mission, but because we want to show up big and show decorum, we miss HIS point.
GOD never minces up HIS words. HE is very clear with what HE wants us to do, but so many times we end up dictating how we want to do HIS work. We pick up the assignment and instead of asking HIM how HE wants us to go about it, we start looking for the obstacles and how we want it to look in the end, making sure it represents us and our brands well,
Oh pity!!
We forget it is for HIM and not for us and HE can use the most “useless looking vessel” to deliver HIS work on Earth.
And HE will take that “useless vessel” and turn it to the finest Gold. This our GOD.

This time around, HE broke me to this extent and now, I realize I was walking in disobedience, disguised in excuses.
I like to call it “Disobedience Incognito.”

What is your “Disobedience Incognito?”
Find it and ask GOD to help you be rid of it.
As much as we say we are delaying something in HIS Kingdom when we don’t adhere to HIS call, (one of the biggest lies I ever told myself), truth is, HIS Kingdom Work keeps going with or without us!
Hurts right? But it’s true.

So don’t stall, HE will give your duty to someone else until you are ready. And until you are ready, you will miss out on so much. Growth, Experience, Movement, Blessings and Grace that come with assignments and so much more.
It does not matter how inadequate you feel.
Doesn’t matter what weaknesses you have or what a lack of decorum and beauty you think you lack.
It doesn’t matter if you feel ready or not.
But yet again GOD is not asking you if you are ready.
HE is asking you if you are willing.

This time, I was willing.
HE gave me all the resources I need.
I believe there is a blessing in store when you obey GOD.
HE honors the sacrifices we make for HIM and for HIS Kingdom.
I am glad I obeyed and I am too sure I will be sharing with you more Testimonies, right here!!

More Grace, Love and Light,
Lydia Ndwiga.