I had taken this route too many times before. I know what lies ahead. I don't care for it. So why, why do I keep starting off on the same journey?

My mind was asking this question over and over. Waiting for the ever elusive answer.

Only silence prevailed. Destination reached once again.

My smile masked my pain.
My ability hid my unwillingness.
My strength covered my weakness.

I hear my head tell me, "You'll make this journey again."

My soul remains silent.

Chapter One

The realization that I had made the singular worst decision in my life 6 years ago, came by way of a phone call.

My best friend phoned to say that she had just saved a patient's life. She was overwhelmed with emotion. Although I have her my best attention, I was overwhelmed with regret.

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