I cant breathe, my throat and chest cant stop aching and the tears won't stop rolling down my face. My heart breaks again. I can't seem to stop it, my heart from aching and my partner is frustrated but I just can't open my mouth to get the words out. It's a never ending cycle.. this pain.. my therapist says sometimes you can't escape the reoccurring trauma in your life so it gets hidden until it is reminded. But I don't want it. I don't want this. The anxiety rises to high. I feel like I'm in hell. I just want to be held. Momma, I love you and I can't lose you too soon. Even just the thought of it could kill me. Hell, it is killing me. How can I be strong? Or pretend to? Why the fuck ovarian cancer?
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