After they have saw what they wanted to hear, they drove away to Simon’s house and wanted to left alone by Susan. Susan was blaming herself because Simon was focused on her while the time the goats were roaming around there was nobody to look for them at the veld because Aron was busy with his school work so he was never going to blamed for nothing I guess he chose the choice as his father chose love over the most important things of his life. When Simon was finally left alone by Susan to think it all through I remember they were times he was regretting things how they were. unfortunately for him there was nobody he was going to blame but... himself for not setting his life straight like separating business from pleasure. As frustrated as he was in his house roaming around looking for a way out of the situation and he was asking himself that...why he was stood that low? I mean like that as ever happened before in his life and he was wondering that maybe meeting Susan was a mistake. The confusion played with his mind and as became to realise that he did this to himself because he was too busy with Susan instead of making sure that he doesn’t let important things dealt by Aron who is a small boy with a small mind so everything was bigger for his brains. However, Simon had to come up with a good plan and on his mind what he thought about was his only livestock but then he realised that to be rational about is only thing that will make things even worse. So he prayed so hard to raise the money to rescue his livestock but something came to his mind and in his mind it was the only thing he could do. Just imagine he thought of sacrificing his two goats by trading with old Dutch man but the only problem is that the old Dutch man will have to choose himself the type he wants in Simon’s goats and he was doubting that as he had a few livestock now he had trade some of them, well... that didn’t really go through his mind so what he did he talked with his son about the matter. Therefore, the boy as small he was but he actually knew how to give his father a good advice and he suggested that his father should wait and try to raise the money for the old Dutch man so he can pay the damages were done by the goats at the maize field. Well... the old Dutch man as heartless as he was but he knew that humanity is the best thing to be produced so that all people should live together as one peacefully. However, he was heartless because he inherited that from his great grandfather who was the one of the first policemen who were maltreating all the black people in South Africa during the time of 1800 probably the arrival of the white men with their white ways of manipulating the black ways in the continent of Africa. Anyways that is a story for another day because it is something we cannot change by now. Aron and Simon as they were planning something to try and better the situation for weeks Susan coming in their house as they were doing all they can alone. Susan was seen there since the day she found out that Simon needed money to rescue his livestock from that old Dutch man. There were times where Simon regretted meeting Susan but then he still believed that they were just in love and nobody meant the harsh towards on each other. Well... it’s not like Simon who will help him but he believed that somewhere somebody will come and save his life because he felt like everything was coming to an end. Perhaps he looked like he was exaggerating but you know Simon was a man who believed if you want something then you will go for it but this time he knew that he has lost the game and what really pissed him off is that he was blind by love before he got himself in this again mess. Even the death of his wife made him lost almost everything from that maize field because he was all over the place and the reason for that is Simon can’t control himself and sometimes he tends to fall in traps because of keeping his mind is the same thing over and over again. Luckily it is the first time he found himself in that situation but I believe if his mind wasn’t all over the place for Susan none of would have happened and I also believe if he took his time as well to move on with his life and none of the memory was going to remind him of his wife. However, the time he realises that it was too late for me to stop the same incident from happening. You know as Susan was nowhere to be found and Simon thought that she was going it on purpose he went mad with her and he vowed that he will not talk with her. Susan on the other side was trying to help her lover Simon so that he will get his livestock from the old Dutch man who owns the maize field and she was working so hard to raise the money by herself I guess one pf the things Simon didn’t know about Susan is that she cared for him and she was going to do everything to make him happy as long it is still a good thing to do. Aron didn’t stop trying to make sure that his academic scores were the best thing would happen in his life, well... he told himself that now they temporary lost their goats then it won’t affect his studies in anyways. However, Susan in the period of few days she completed the money on the own and as she promised she will help Simon so he can get what really belonged to him back. You know as men we don’t usually believe women when they tell us that they will do something for us I guess it is because they take time and we want to do some action now so we can get the solution and our thoughts as men are rational sometimes. So as I said Susan raise the money and she went to see her lover Simon to tell him about the good news. Well... what she didn’t know is that Simon was unknowingly mad at her and she never knew that in that particular time and when she arrived in Simon’s home he was looking at his goats’ kraal in sorrow. You could see from his eyes that he is hurt inside and only if he had a way he would have kept himself out of that mess and his only mistake was to take it out on somebody who cares a lot about him. However, Susan took his frustration and she told herself that she won’t react because it was going make things even worse as Simon has already chosen her to blame for the mess he did to himself. I guess it is part of our nature that as men we love to give all we got to woman and then we believe that they will make our lives easier as for looking back for us. Even after the week she came back to talk with Simon about the good news he wasn’t interested in hearing that because he was still mad at her for not talking with him all this time I think that he was too much to his lover Susan I mean like she was bringing something that will bring a smile on his face but... he chose the argument without even listening and the God’s sake it is not something she was hoping to hear or see from Simon you know she thought he would be a little relieved after all.


© Makaziwe Gotyana