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My life Dairy part 5
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25/2/2024......SHIMLA
And when you have to enter a new college, I know how excited you all have been, you even get nightmare in the night regarding the college, and the nights passes you are excited and I can see from the smile that u all have inside that glimpse through your eyes. Your parents give you some pieces of advice, look you gotta study more hard now, make yourself and us proud, from now on you are your own master and blaaa blaaaaa blaaaa. Finally you get ready and yaaa you want to be a little bit more beautiful to give a good impression at the first sight and finally you reach to the college and you see many students there and with every step you take you feel as if everyone is looking at me hahaaha and then you and the others sit outside waiting for others to come and then either people come to you to greet you or you put up the courage and take the first step. Hi, how are you? Are you also junior? What is your name and where are you from and they ask the same. Then the others join you and a little chit chat and then you go back to your class.Take whatever position is left open. And the whole journey starts. The teachers ask you all to introduce yourself. And if your name sound something interesting or a little bit odd the others look at you and the teacher ask yaaa what was your name again? And gradually after few days like 10 or 15 days the college becomes more friendly. Your classmates greet you and then the journey begins.
And all the things as I mentioned here they all apply to me too. A thing to remember here is that Your all classmates on the first day are newcomers like the way you are. Even if no one comes to talk to you then you must not think negativity of yourself comeon buddy go and talk to them. You take the first step and then see how they will interact with you. Don't be shy or afraid, come on be confident go and greet everyone with a cheering face, with a smiling face..
I am too friendly 'that's why at the 5th day I guess the campus felt as if I have been here from past months. Well as the time passes on you get to know that people with whome you sit on the first day were not meant to be your friends. It is not necessary that those with whome you sit and get them know and even talk on calls are meant to be best friends and those whome you avoid from the first day are meant to be strangers. Inface later on I got to know that those strangers are the best to be with and we had a great company ahead and those so called friends of first day, they were not meant to be with you cause gradually you get to know them. And trust be I believe it is indeed only the Almighty who know you and your heart and as per that he sends you your bestest friends. And i am always greatful for that. I am friendly with the whole class. But I only have one best friend and I value her the most. Thank you Almighty so so so much for that.
Tomorrow I have to go back to college almost after three months. I don't know how fast these three months passed. I couldn't cover enough syllabus that I expected I would. My socks I guess that I even forgot to wash them from past three months, yaa I will use new pairs tomorrow but to be very honest I kept saying myself that I will wash tomorrow and I don't know how fast these three months vanished. I am being honest that I am sad, cause I don't want to go to college tomorrow. Not just tomorrow but nit so often. The college should be önce in a week. You know why?. It is because the teachers don't teach well there. They just come to fill the board. Yaaa two teachers are somewhat fine but others are just either they come and tell us to make notes like 5th grad students or they come and write the headline of topic and go. It is so frustrating. Like really they don't give us the feel of subject. They even don't try to explain the notes. They even don't understand there own handwriting on the board. And at the end of the day it is just you and like ones own self who covers the whole syllabus. I watch videos of ninja nerd or docotor najeeb, TCML, johari , Essentials of MS, DR sumit Gupta etc. And then I finally understand the stuff. And yaaa it is too much time consuming but thankfully I understand the topic. Thanks to YouTube. My eyes and my brain cells are dead from the online studies. But we can't do anything cause at college they just waste your day. It makes me hot headed like why do we have to pay them feel, for what stuff, they don't teach us. Our parents should instead pay the YouTube. Yaa tomorrow I will go to college and keep listening to the walls and wait anxiously till it is 4 so that I will be freed from the college. Actually a prison. You can't study there on your own cause the teachers will point out you and blaaaa blaaa blaaa. Just a waste of time. That's why I am fed up with my college. Well I have to go for attendance. We pay fee in lakhs for attendance. Sarcastically how valuable the attendance is hahaha. The teachers there are not only wasting our time but they are enjoying with the money from our parents. Which our parents earn through sweet and salt. They work so much. And this thing always makes my blood boiled. Oh Almighty give me patience. This is not just in my college, believe me everywhere the same thing is happening. And we students do the whole thing and I guess we are our own teachers hahaa. You get off at 4 and reach to your home around 5:30 Or 6. Then you rest for a while. And study till 11 and sleep cause you are tired and wake up in morning. Have breakfast and go back to prison college. In 4 hours you have to complete 7 books and that is impossible cause the single Anatomy takes 2 hours and physio takes 2 hours and the end. I don't know how I do the whole stuff and still get A+... Hahaaa magic is happening I guess. Just by thinking of tomorrow makes me so sad.
I have thought to give up on my college crush. Yes you read it right. I am giving up on my college crush. I want to study more and more to get selection in MD and then I will find someone and then marry him. I don't want to waste my life you know for me it is a big responsibility to be a best doctor because I heard that people with PG MBBS do fail sometimes cause there diagnosis doesn't work and they can't treat patients and as a result they never get the privilege to treat people. I don't want to be like them. I want to be a doctor for whome people come from miles to be treated. And for that I will work hard cause I want people to be fit and healthy and give them freedom from pain. I have to work even though if it costs anything. So goodbye my dearest college crush. I know I will have to face you continuously in college for three years and önce in a blue moon in next one year. And maybe then give you farewell party and bid you goodbye. I know I will have to do it anyhow and anyway. Hahaaa I am just too unlucky when it comes to love. My friend said me that you have a girlfriend. I know I like you and I don't think it is appropriate to meddle in others business. So let you two be happy and be with each other. Maybe I confused liking with love. But wait, the first stage in love is that you like someone. Because I don't think if you hate someone you will love them. First you like them and then you love them.Well anyways dumb me as usual here unlucky hahahaaa. I once read it online that if you like someone for more than 4 months even when they were not around then it means you have fallen for that one haahaaa please don't laugh at me.
I guess I have fallen for you too. Let me take an ideal situation. Suppose we both confess, we will talk like lovebirds and we will be in a relationship, and if sometimes you are angry I won't turn back and be more furious rather than that I will give a hug and when it is my mistake I will apologize, I would listen to you, I would keep looking at you for hours and still don't feel tired, I will pat your shoulder and take much care of you. And by this I guess may be I have fallen for you. But yaa it is ideal situation but what I said I would definitely do if it would have been reall. Well anyways whether what I feel for you is obsession, liking, adoration, or love I want to say Goodbye. Thank you for looking at my eyes, thank you for making my heart feel home, thank you for everything. Even if this everything is merely nothing still a big thank you to you. I am in a mission to be a best doctor. Someone who could give relief to people and I want to make a great generation. I am the first female doctor of my generation so yaaa I want to create a generation that follows me Or whatever there decision is I will respect there decision. I won't let my eyes fall for you and for others untill and unless I have a bright carrier. Please be loyal to your current girlfriend. Dear self thank you for accepting the reality and always being practical. I believe on you Almighty. Dearest Almighty please let me fall in love with the person that you have made me pair with. Dearest Almighty make my heart full with kindness and make me someone who could reduce poverty to some extent. Thank you for always being merciful.
© reminisce
25/2/2024......SHIMLA
And when you have to enter a new college, I know how excited you all have been, you even get nightmare in the night regarding the college, and the nights passes you are excited and I can see from the smile that u all have inside that glimpse through your eyes. Your parents give you some pieces of advice, look you gotta study more hard now, make yourself and us proud, from now on you are your own master and blaaa blaaaaa blaaaa. Finally you get ready and yaaa you want to be a little bit more beautiful to give a good impression at the first sight and finally you reach to the college and you see many students there and with every step you take you feel as if everyone is looking at me hahaaha and then you and the others sit outside waiting for others to come and then either people come to you to greet you or you put up the courage and take the first step. Hi, how are you? Are you also junior? What is your name and where are you from and they ask the same. Then the others join you and a little chit chat and then you go back to your class.Take whatever position is left open. And the whole journey starts. The teachers ask you all to introduce yourself. And if your name sound something interesting or a little bit odd the others look at you and the teacher ask yaaa what was your name again? And gradually after few days like 10 or 15 days the college becomes more friendly. Your classmates greet you and then the journey begins.
And all the things as I mentioned here they all apply to me too. A thing to remember here is that Your all classmates on the first day are newcomers like the way you are. Even if no one comes to talk to you then you must not think negativity of yourself comeon buddy go and talk to them. You take the first step and then see how they will interact with you. Don't be shy or afraid, come on be confident go and greet everyone with a cheering face, with a smiling face..
I am too friendly 'that's why at the 5th day I guess the campus felt as if I have been here from past months. Well as the time passes on you get to know that people with whome you sit on the first day were not meant to be your friends. It is not necessary that those with whome you sit and get them know and even talk on calls are meant to be best friends and those whome you avoid from the first day are meant to be strangers. Inface later on I got to know that those strangers are the best to be with and we had a great company ahead and those so called friends of first day, they were not meant to be with you cause gradually you get to know them. And trust be I believe it is indeed only the Almighty who know you and your heart and as per that he sends you your bestest friends. And i am always greatful for that. I am friendly with the whole class. But I only have one best friend and I value her the most. Thank you Almighty so so so much for that.
Tomorrow I have to go back to college almost after three months. I don't know how fast these three months passed. I couldn't cover enough syllabus that I expected I would. My socks I guess that I even forgot to wash them from past three months, yaa I will use new pairs tomorrow but to be very honest I kept saying myself that I will wash tomorrow and I don't know how fast these three months vanished. I am being honest that I am sad, cause I don't want to go to college tomorrow. Not just tomorrow but nit so often. The college should be önce in a week. You know why?. It is because the teachers don't teach well there. They just come to fill the board. Yaaa two teachers are somewhat fine but others are just either they come and tell us to make notes like 5th grad students or they come and write the headline of topic and go. It is so frustrating. Like really they don't give us the feel of subject. They even don't try to explain the notes. They even don't understand there own handwriting on the board. And at the end of the day it is just you and like ones own self who covers the whole syllabus. I watch videos of ninja nerd or docotor najeeb, TCML, johari , Essentials of MS, DR sumit Gupta etc. And then I finally understand the stuff. And yaaa it is too much time consuming but thankfully I understand the topic. Thanks to YouTube. My eyes and my brain cells are dead from the online studies. But we can't do anything cause at college they just waste your day. It makes me hot headed like why do we have to pay them feel, for what stuff, they don't teach us. Our parents should instead pay the YouTube. Yaa tomorrow I will go to college and keep listening to the walls and wait anxiously till it is 4 so that I will be freed from the college. Actually a prison. You can't study there on your own cause the teachers will point out you and blaaaa blaaa blaaa. Just a waste of time. That's why I am fed up with my college. Well I have to go for attendance. We pay fee in lakhs for attendance. Sarcastically how valuable the attendance is hahaha. The teachers there are not only wasting our time but they are enjoying with the money from our parents. Which our parents earn through sweet and salt. They work so much. And this thing always makes my blood boiled. Oh Almighty give me patience. This is not just in my college, believe me everywhere the same thing is happening. And we students do the whole thing and I guess we are our own teachers hahaa. You get off at 4 and reach to your home around 5:30 Or 6. Then you rest for a while. And study till 11 and sleep cause you are tired and wake up in morning. Have breakfast and go back to prison college. In 4 hours you have to complete 7 books and that is impossible cause the single Anatomy takes 2 hours and physio takes 2 hours and the end. I don't know how I do the whole stuff and still get A+... Hahaaa magic is happening I guess. Just by thinking of tomorrow makes me so sad.
I have thought to give up on my college crush. Yes you read it right. I am giving up on my college crush. I want to study more and more to get selection in MD and then I will find someone and then marry him. I don't want to waste my life you know for me it is a big responsibility to be a best doctor because I heard that people with PG MBBS do fail sometimes cause there diagnosis doesn't work and they can't treat patients and as a result they never get the privilege to treat people. I don't want to be like them. I want to be a doctor for whome people come from miles to be treated. And for that I will work hard cause I want people to be fit and healthy and give them freedom from pain. I have to work even though if it costs anything. So goodbye my dearest college crush. I know I will have to face you continuously in college for three years and önce in a blue moon in next one year. And maybe then give you farewell party and bid you goodbye. I know I will have to do it anyhow and anyway. Hahaaa I am just too unlucky when it comes to love. My friend said me that you have a girlfriend. I know I like you and I don't think it is appropriate to meddle in others business. So let you two be happy and be with each other. Maybe I confused liking with love. But wait, the first stage in love is that you like someone. Because I don't think if you hate someone you will love them. First you like them and then you love them.Well anyways dumb me as usual here unlucky hahahaaa. I once read it online that if you like someone for more than 4 months even when they were not around then it means you have fallen for that one haahaaa please don't laugh at me.
I guess I have fallen for you too. Let me take an ideal situation. Suppose we both confess, we will talk like lovebirds and we will be in a relationship, and if sometimes you are angry I won't turn back and be more furious rather than that I will give a hug and when it is my mistake I will apologize, I would listen to you, I would keep looking at you for hours and still don't feel tired, I will pat your shoulder and take much care of you. And by this I guess may be I have fallen for you. But yaa it is ideal situation but what I said I would definitely do if it would have been reall. Well anyways whether what I feel for you is obsession, liking, adoration, or love I want to say Goodbye. Thank you for looking at my eyes, thank you for making my heart feel home, thank you for everything. Even if this everything is merely nothing still a big thank you to you. I am in a mission to be a best doctor. Someone who could give relief to people and I want to make a great generation. I am the first female doctor of my generation so yaaa I want to create a generation that follows me Or whatever there decision is I will respect there decision. I won't let my eyes fall for you and for others untill and unless I have a bright carrier. Please be loyal to your current girlfriend. Dear self thank you for accepting the reality and always being practical. I believe on you Almighty. Dearest Almighty please let me fall in love with the person that you have made me pair with. Dearest Almighty make my heart full with kindness and make me someone who could reduce poverty to some extent. Thank you for always being merciful.
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