The Lioness and The Lamb Chapter Four End

Jyn

It's been a week of working at the shelter which has made me feel much better as a person. It was work that benefited my efforts without any negative interference. The workload for Robert became none existent when I started helping him organize and understand things better. Luckily I had an understanding of business and how to spot problems that could be solved quickly. The ones with much deeper problems took time but also got resolved and Soon Robert was less at work. The construction had taken all his time while I had to manage the shelter fully. Cat made fliers for the animals and handed them out at places around the library which got us some traction. We managed to find homes for the younger ones and I even managed to make sales off our products.

Cat has been taking the lead but I'm like a statue which bothers me because I see she's trying. But last night she asked if it was time to move on for us or not, something she asks frequently which I can't blame her. Even though I'm not who I was that need to be in control has been pushing its way to the surface. All I can do is resist and fight against it yet I can't help wondering if that's me or just a slip through a crack. Neither of us wanted the relationship to be this complicated to restart or even rekindle but it's hard separating myself. I often feel I'm close but then it slips away from my fingers again and I'm left grasping at air desperately.

"Hey, it's lunchtime Jyn."

"Sorry I was in my head."

"I know and it doesn't seem to be any better today."

"What do you mean?"

"You are still losing whatever you keep fighting against. But if I had to guess you are afraid to accept both are you, and you keep cutting yourself mentally. But it's a part of you so it won't go away, it happened before remember. You told me that."

She was speaking the truth which I was hoping not to admit because I didn't wanna be that person. I wanted to be separated entirely from that terrible person but if I have to accept it's another piece of me. And not just a creation made to keep me safe how do I handle that exactly.

"Hey, enough already. Lunchtime is my free time so stop with the thinking."

"Sorry, how was work?"

"Good but the fliers are getting low. So I'll have to make more tonight it seems. Any more little guys get adopted?"

"Just a few and now mostly the older ones are here but that's okay. Robert said the retirement home part of the construction was near finished. So they will be moved home."

"That's good, everyone needs a home. I think I'll need a vacation soon myself, my body is so tight and tense. Those booms are getting heavier or maybe I'm getting old."

Looking at her smiling like this is contagious and I soon start smiling. If for one night I'm not afraid I wonder if we can reconnect so I can see the truth. If I let go for one night then we can have our answer by morning, it's silly and nearly illogical. But I want to know more than anything who I am honestly.

"Well, you keep spacing, and the foods gone so ill head back. Take care and don't let yourself become too absorbed Jyn."

She didn't reach over to kiss me but it was expected with a look of pain. It's like watching her walk away from me again and it hurts so deeply. My body moves before my brain can catch up and I soon have her pulled back towards me. My actions are fueled by my body this time and everything seems to flow naturally. My lips find hers if only briefly which was more than enough to steal away her breath once more. If something doesn't change I'll lose her for good and all of this suffering will be for nothing.

"If nothing changes between us Cat I'm afraid I'll lose you again... Tonight just you and me we both will just let go. Hopefully, we will have an answer by morning, no regrets."

"Okay, it's a date... I'll see you tonight Jyn."

Words my mind couldn't put together without adding possible outcomes that could turn things bad. My actions often spoke louder than my words and that's how we got this far because my actions and words have also been separated. If I could bring everything inside of me that's torn in half would that be the real me. Nothing will change right now with just overthinking since tonight ill let go. For one night I will become unrestrained and let my mind and body work together. Whatever the truth is we will both know by morning and that will be the end of this back and forth.

The day seemed to go faster while I was hoping it would slow down. I managed to get work done and get everyone settled down for the night and before I knew it I was closing up. Tonight was us so nothing would alter or affect us which meant I couldn't calm my nerves with a drink. My feet moved faster toward home but I couldn't stop adding unnecessary thoughts to my mind but once I open that door and enter it had to stop. Before I could prepare further or even think more crazily I was already opening the door to our home. My feet didn't waste time carrying me inside and true to my word my thoughts became silent. My only focus was on finding the candles she had and using them as our lighting for tonight. I'm not sure what is considered romantic or even mood-setting exactly but this felt necessary. Since this was the only light to illuminate us for the night.

Just after I finished up with the candles I managed to rearrange the dinner table while dinner finished cooking. Just as I started finishing up it was time to check dinner and that's when I heard the door open. The moment she walked in and her eyes found me I saw a smile meant only for me. I continued to finish up the food when she came over letting her hands move across my waist as she leaned in for a kiss which I returned. After a few minutes, the kiss broke and she went to the other room leaving me to get our dinner plated and on the table. As everything was placed down she came back out wearing a lace night top that barely covered her skin. Her long legs competing for attention as she moved my eyes couldn't resist bouncing all over drinking her in.

I could feel my mind working with my body finally and soon I had crossed the gap between us. Pulling her at the waist into my arms giving her another kiss which was just as light but this time our tongues moved together. Our tongues remembered each other and seemed to move without needing instructions. Everything was on instinct as I indulged in this pleasure being fed to me. After a minute Of my hand trailing against her spine and our tongues dancing together, the kiss was broken. My hand never left her lower back as I guided her to the seat prepared for tonight. The night was silent afraid that this moment could be shattered with a single word but like this, we didn't need words. I could feel a fraction of how I use to feel and why I always tried to be leading our relationship. But now I was wanting something different and everything inside of me seemed to agree and want to work together. I was feeling closer to being a complete person.

Since dinner was light and our drinks were water everything seemed more or less perfect. We didn't need to clean up because tonight was supposed to be just us and that's what I planned on keeping to. Especially now that I feel so close to something I feel was missing for a long time. I got up first and soon hand her in my arms carrying her to our room but not before claiming a few quick kisses. The moment my legs touched the bed I lowered her down gently as my lips began claiming her neck and chest. Kisses that lead to biting and soon sucking that left small Hickey's in her beautiful skin all of which made her body burn hotter. A long-held desire was being opened inside of her and I could feel the heat that was building inside of her. With her body laid down, my hands started to pull at the thin strings holding this lace top on her body.

This room was filled with her heavy breathing and every so often low moans. My lips continued to kiss and mark each part of her exposed skin while moving further south. The way she arched into me while gripping and pulling at the sheets was building a hunger inside of me. Her breast became exposed and soon u was focusing on covering them in saliva and marks which was making her moans rise ever higher. However, I wanted something even more so I had to part with each breast and continue down to her core. Her hands started grabbing at my shirt and pulling desperately which I had to pull away to let her strip me down. She was desperate for my skin to be bare but she didn't rush too quickly since her mouth wanted time to follow my lead from earlier. Soon my neck and chest were being covered in bites which was followed by rough sucking.

She finally freed my body of its clothing which meant it was my turn to return to her body. A whine repeatedly rose from her as if someone was taking something from her. I didn't plan to keep her waiting much longer to indulge in my body as well. After kicking my shoes off I moved and repositioned my body so she had access and she soon turned towards me bending and moving to reach places. Her lips kissed my stomach while fingers worked swiftly at my jeans stripping the last of my clothing off within minutes that followed. My lips started to kiss and pull at the skin of her thighs as I began leaving marks once more. With my only free hand, I started to reach for her skin hoping to scratch and squeeze at something. Our moans seemed to be controlled and light as we got lost in these moments together.

We spent a lot of time marking and kissing the other's body before reaching the core. My hand came back around to trace the pad of my finger up and down the entrance feeling her heat and moisture. She was following my lead perfectly which eventually had us both moving and arching for more of the others touch. My fingers soon began sliding inside of her pulling and opening her core up which let my tongue dipping inside of her just at the tip. A slow agonizing motion of my tongue stroking at her entrance without pushing in too deeply yet. The pleasure we were feeling just from this torturous exploring was driving us both wild but the excitement was rising to new heights. After getting a taste of each other we started to pay the tongues in deeper letting fingers move in every so often to push against walls or even pull out the other's juices.

It didn't take long to put her back on the head laying down once more so I could mount her body. Her face pushed hungrily into my core before I was even ready which made my voice rise just a little higher but I soon had the strength to recover and dive in between her legs. Once more our tongues moved without instruction it felt as if they knew these places best and every place that pulled a reaction was attacked. We managed to keep our orgasms from ruining this first time which became more difficult the longer we went but we both seemed intent to hold out till the end. My hands moved to grip her ass squeezing roughly while pushing her upwards into my mouth more. The way she moaned while eating me was driving me wild with pleasure which im sure was the same with her. We both were reaching the point of release but the only made us hasten our efforts and use our tongues in more aggressive ways.

I could feel my orgasm hit first and hard enough to send shock waves through me that felt numbing nearly. My body felt like it wanted to seize up and just lock itself down while riding out this orgasm that filled her mouth and lungs. Which she accepted without wasting a drop or even choking from taking too much. However, once she was certain that every drop was taken from me she moved to switch out positions. Her body rotated till she was looking down unto my eyes while her hand gripped my hair pulling me into her. Her hips rolled and grinded down hard as my mouth continued to move and push against her core while my tongue attacked the cherry aggressively. Her moans were much louder than mine to the point she was nearly screaming out my name as she rode out her orgasm as intensely as possible. Just as she did I swallowed every drip without wasting anything and slowly her body started to relax from the powerful orgasm. Even though she wanted to collapse her body moved till it was aligned with mine. Her lips captured mine and we spent what seemed like hours just kissing trading saliva and the other's taste of cum. Our moans seemed to mix and mingle as our tongues danced once more together.

For the rest of the night, we took a few breaks as we continued to ride the waves of pleasures. Our bodies became covered with marks and stained with leftover saliva or even cum that didn't get licked up. When the sun's light poked through the half-closed curtains we realized how much time we spent in each other's arms just enjoying one another feelings. We both seemed beyond committed to our night till the morning came as if it was our last night together. For the first time, I didn't fight against that side of me I tried to replace and bury, but I managed to compromise. This is what I wanted between her and me without either truly leading the other.

"It's morning Jyn."

"Yeah, it is."

"Did we figure it out, or do I have to say goodbye again."

"I managed to find myself and even compromise... I love you Cat, and I think it's sade to say we can move forward together. But I'm still getting adjusted to some things."

"I love you too and adjusting is fine... We made it to this point that's what matters. But I cannot go outside like this, my body is sore and covered in Hickey's."

We couldn't stop laughing but she wasn't wrong neither of us could leave like this. Which just means we had the morning together as well till we could get rid of these marks. But that's fine too because I don't wanna part from her just yet.

"My actual name is Jennifer. It was a part of me that I wanted to hide but in truth, I hated that name deeply. My father came up with it when mother and him had problems during the pregnancy. Apparently, I was named after a one-night stand woman he had when he found out I was a girl."

"Who would want that kind of name that's just... Disgusting. How did your mother tolerate that?..."

"She didn't know or maybe she pretended not to know. But it doesn't matter I just wanted you to know."

"You are Jyn to me so don't worry anymore, but thank you... Can I ask something that is probably much further in the future?"

"What's up?"

" Did you ever think about marriage or having a family with me at all or even now.?"

"Honestly no because I knew what kind of person I was. I wasn't ready to grow up then but in a way I guess I did want it at some point as well. A conflict I had inside I'm sure."

We had a different future now so I was sure that we would have all that and more in time. For the rest of the day, we stayed in bed mostly between showers and food. We avoided wearing clothes and just kept cuddling with each other, it was a perfect day that couldn't get better.

{Writers notes; This story was originally meant as an erotic story for Literotica that was declined multiple times. So I altered the story and made it as less erotica as possible while building something out of it. This is where I'll stop this story for now but if the support for it and people comment wanting a second volume I'll go further. Hope everyone enjoyed the journey for these two and that I delivered a proper story as a writer.}
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