I have such an interesting tale to tell
Of how I tried to reach heaven by going thru hell
I walked away from my safety zone
Feeling so small, lost and alone

Tired of trying to “just fit in”
A square peg in a round hole; no way to win
For years I struggled to play that game
To try to keep myself from going insane

Did I get what I deserved?
Always the one to break that damn bell curve!
I was a still-water that runs quite deep
I made certain I was alone when I did weep

Hurt, scared and so confused
Tired of being emotionally abused
I turned my back on what I thought I knew
And once I did, guess what; I grew

I had to learn to defy convention
I came up with a healing plan of my own invention
I began to look inside for the answers I did seek
I forgave myself for ever feeling weak

A child like me to believe I'm strong
But really I just wanted to play along
So easy for a youngster to be lead astray
So many innocents upon which to prey

The safety that I thought I knew
Ends up being the very thing betraying Me
A loving haven cannot be found
When kindness and compassion are not around

I had to remove myself from the race
To recover some saving grace
A huge step into the unknown
Being out there all on my own

A scary place for me to be
With no one looking out for me
I had to learn to find my wings
Rediscover what makes my soul sing

I love the early morning sunrise
It still brings tears of joy to my eyes
Every morning is a glorious surprise
Feeling the healing, love and warmth inside.