There was once a lady that loved to put her emotions down on paper, she felt like poetry was truly the only method that understood her, and made her feel better ... sometimes smiling... Sometimes her eyes just gradually become wetter and wetter!
sometimes she was hopeless, sometimes a jet setter, finding comfort in the moon along with rainy weather...the combination of the two according to her, could simply never be better!!
Have you as an individual prayed from deep within your soul, that you Will stand tall ,and not let the trials and tribulations in life, apon you take its toll.
Frustrations build as you allways end up lost and in the cold...I wish HONESTLY speaking that I can't consider my soul sold, now having to keep it since it's anyway mine.
I'll just have to keep my head held high,and my actions brave and bold!!
so ....what is the key to people taking me seriously, me....busy soul searching even until today!
To any longer that one simple factor that keeps you believing the moment I just want to disappear which leads to interfere of it all ,tear by tear honestly on Earth don't even know what I'm still doing here!! it's been said apparently that everything happens for a reason to me, used to mean something but now just passes me by like one season turns to the next. All I can do is make sure I personally do my best, forget the rest of course me alone is sadly what the leaveably is best... I walk upon my chosen path, then I dig and dig to hopefully in the End, come upon the glory of that long ago buried treasure chest!! this life loves to permanently put you through a test ...cant study ,I need to be prepared!!! nightmares then overcome me at times they come at me while I'm city in my bed ...my deepest fears come to life as I believe the things that are willingly allowed others to imprint into my head. warm my heart though I must admit, in the heat of the moment I really thought they meant what they said, even though my girl told me they alone ...through that available lesson that I never read or put together inside of my head, I am always trusting my guts no matter what !;;;!!I know it will constantly put me in the lead in my battle... I might be Black and Blue I might even bleed but my inner strength and belief in myself is simply all I need ...negativity and dark emotions on that my innermost demons love to feed!!! feel so sorry for all on this planet,once I figured out how to enable them to be free. Climbing to safety... it won't then be possible anyway ,that's not fair!! in the end we will see who still remains there... other than that ,won't give them the satisfaction of showing that I care !!giving the best to everyone except to me ,towards myself then I realize. .. I won't be playing fair, I might not currently be in the lead but I will eventually be momentarily as we disitergrate together ,the more unscretual spiritual and utmost deeper yet darker parts of me... once ,you get to know me you will help us to grow ...prove to me that you won't get sick of me!!.. just to after it all ,pack up and go !!....don't know if my Heart Will Survive yet another low blow!;!!, don't want to find out actually, cuz I'm not prepared to feel lower than low ...then I'd rather be 6 ft under laying down in the good kind of low ...love I guess, low love is better than no love in the end !!!???or ,do you disagree...?!? what would you rather just throw all the facts aside ,and come and love me !!??;;;!make my demons inside of me weak, and give my innermost higher self chance to speak ...I was that girl, now I'm a woman ...and I'll probably almost every day end up still doing things that I shouldn't
...the end...
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