please dont let me leave this earth never knowing love.my whole life somebody told me what i was good for and what i was worth.i knew what i thought was love but ive never had anyone else to compair it too.
its like all those years ago someone decided for me that loneliness was my path. what is the lesson in that. ppl say your such a sweet girl thoughtful caring but the moment were alone its just about my body parts and if its functional.
nobody wants to know why my smile isnt so bright anymore or why when i get asked out on a date i automatically answer is my donation gonna be a problem. i cant believe this is my life i did my part. i held there secrets why do they get to be happy after they shattard me to a fine powder. the ones who took the light in my eyes made me this way . i am the monster they created. No matter how much talent or how smart i was i was never gonna be anything i aspire to be because they put this invisible filth that to this day i take showers so hot . all i can do is ask him why i was innocent i was a child forced to grow up to soon and on a battlefield. i was to dam scared to open my mouth because the state would break us up again so i kept my mouth shut and made sure that one day i was gonna stand up and not hold my head down in shame. see i survived child molestation, child abuse, incest verbal and physical abuse. whos gonna love me ? whos gonna fight off my demons when those monsters come around. Lord u know i love u but where were u because there sins are holding me back and i cant live like thus anymore. let me find love build a family hell i wanna smile really smile not the one i plaster on my face. i know u have alot to do but i feel like u forgot me. hello lord are u there .IS ANYBODY THERE.