Meeting you was never easy. I went through tough times just to forget my memories you made with me. I didn't even actually did forgotten about it wholly. I feel sad, feel jealous, feel hurt, feel betrayed, feel low, and feel that I need to compete to be treated as a human being wanting to be treated nicely like the ones who are higher or with greater power because of being rich. I hope someday if we ever meet again I hope I am very matured enough to understand and get over this kind of pain easily. I didn't wish to some of the pages of my life stories be like this. I wanted it to be changed but it is now part of the whole. There are hurts that I cannot understand because I know what I need to do to feel better, but I cannot make myself do it Maybe, it made me first feel happy a little that's why I keep thinking about it even if it deeply hurts me. How stupid I am right? To keep thinking about it. I hope this memories will all be part of my past story without feeling the hurt anymore.
© Ruakh