Please share your comments... I totally need to understand. If you're are one of this what suggestions do you have.. it means a lot to me


Every morning I wake up with a thought that I will spend good time today in the presence of chicken cuckoo and birds chirping.. In the early morning I had good thoughts about me, career, life partner, future. Sometime about workout nd desire of sex as I am single....

Once in every minute I think to erase negativity. The moment I think all the past stand just like a realise movie in the theatre. This after this, that after that.. there is no break until and unless any sound does not hit. Why this is happening with me the more I want peace the more I get into the trouble in loud noise. Sometimes I feel like if anyone can read my mind and conclude what the result will come out.. it will be the mixture of good n bad thoughts, desire n wishes, positivity and negativity, anger, love and happiness. I am really very upset with myself as everyday I fight with myself every hour and just pretending I am happy and normal. However, I am the hero, I am the Willian, I am god and I am human in my world. This strange things are happening and unable to find solution. If one answer come up the next thought externally affect.

The moment I need silence, the more loud noise I hear. The moment I am happy, the next person teases me. The moment I want to fall in love, the other person leave. The moment I cry, the next one make me laugh. The moment I care for others, the one didn't want me. The natural oppose to everything is running me out of normal space and forcefully ask me to adopt situation however it is..

If this is life then what is death.....


-Nachiket Lonkar