CHAPTER 2: DEEP WATERS, UNSTEADY BRIDGES
"What is wrong with you Adelaide?" "What…in the world did you do that for. You stupid stupid stupid…gahhh! Wha… why in the world did I do that? No...no…no, no no nooo. I'm not going down that road again."
Why did I kiss him? I was frightened. I knew this feeling and I just couldn't understand it. At that moment, I saw something familiar in his eyes. I never thought I had a heart, but the way it fluttered just at that moment, made me realize that not only did I still have a heart, it was still capable of feeling. But how? How in the world can a heart this broken, still have hope? But was I willing to take that chance again. A wily thing it is, hope. It grabs you and in an instant you see limitless possibilities, but I also knew how destructive can be. I let myself be tricked before by it's mesmerizing touch. But not this time, not this time.
"Grrrrhhhh! I need a drink. I need a freaking drink." And I remember how I cried that day. Not because of the pain of my past, but simply because I knew that I was helplessly falling for him. Tried as I might, to make myself believe, it wasn't real, it just got stronger. I started seeing Dr. Damian on the advice of my closest friend, four months after my last break up which left me a broken mess. Well, she had to do a lot...