I was in a deep state of contemplation, my gaze unfocused and fixed on the space in front of me. My mind seemed to have reached out beyond what I could see into the vast unknown, all of my thoughts dancing together to create something larger than any single one of them. I felt a great weight settle onto my shoulders as I thought, each idea sparking off the next and expanding further until it felt like the boundaries between them had completely dissolved.
I felt overwhelmed with a deep sense of guilt and regret. My thoughts raced with all the potential outcomes of my actions—what will happen to me, what will happen to her, and what will happen to our relationship? I know I should have made better decisions and that I should have respected our relationship more than this.
I feel ashamed of myself for betraying the trust we had built together, for not being faithful, and for putting our future...