Laurier POV:

My world seemed to stop when I heard the words of Pres. I can see that he's just trying to calm down, but it's obvious that he also wants to lose his temper. I can also see the sadness on Jaydi's face because of what he heard. I couldn't stop the tears from flowing from my eyes.

My eyes are getting dark from crying. Pres tapped my shoulder and said,

"Right now we need to be strong first, okay?" He encouraged us.

We quickly rushed to the hospital, as told by the person who called Pres earlier.

We also reached the hospital quickly. My knees were weak as we walked in there. I can't explain my feelings when I saw Jerille (Jarred's sister) and her father crying a lot while standing outside the Operation Room.

As we approached them, Jerille immediately approached us too.

"You are my brother's friends, right?" She asked us, to which I nodded. It's just now that we met for the first time, so we may not be very familiar with her. "And he supposed to see all of you today, right? He told me that this morning before he left the house. He even said he wasn't sure if he could be with you because he had other things to do." She said as her tears fell.

"You're brother Hans, aren't you? You're familiar with me because you've passed by the house once. I also saw on my brother's phone the message you sent him earlier. The messages from your gc. 20 minutes ago when brother was brought here at the hospital, 1:52 pm earlier. His jacket, wallet and phone were found on the beach. My brother committed suicide. He jumped into the sea. It took almost 40 minutes before he was found." Jerille's tears flowed one after the other, continuously. Her knees were weak, and she almost fell so we helped her sit down first.

"But why would he do that? It's impossible. We talked about going to Ryle together. If I was earlier, it wouldn't have happened?". I'm so confused. I suddenly remembered what happened earlier. Am I just imagining it? Did Jarred really just appear in front of me?

"It's not your fault, Hans. Maybe if I had forced him to go with me earlier, it wouldn't have happened." Pres said sadly. He also blames himself.

"He doesn't tell us about his problems. Does he have a problem? I wish we were asking him." Jaydi's regret.

"It was only 1 week ago that mom was buried. My brother felt so much sorrow about it. He couldn't sleep early. He often came home late and was really drunk. It was 4 days ago when he was also rushed to the hospital.
He tried to kill himself. H-He took a lot of medicine. We talked to him deeply and begged him to take care of himself. He agreed. I thought everything would be okay after that. In the following days, I thought he was okay. We became complacent." She cried when she cried.

I can see the disappointment in the eyes of Pres. I know we have the same thoughts. We don't even know about his problems. What kind of friends are we? I think we lack to give attention to him. We missed him so much. It seems like heaven and earth have fallen on us now.

Later on,  Pres's phone rang. Ryle is calling.

"Pres! We're chatting on GC, bro. Why aren't you replying???". Ryle said bored. Oh right, it's 2:17 p.m. already. It turns out we didn't notice our phone very much. Jonas also chatted about what happened in Jarred's last chat.

"Ryle... Go to the hospital, we're here now. Jarred was rushed here. Please don't panic. If you could have your driver, let him drive. I don't want you to rush here. Just tell Jonas too. Please calm down." A calm and weak voice of Pres. In this situation, I know he wants to avoid making mistakes.


-----------Time Skipped------------

It's already 3:24 pm when Ryle, Zed, and Jonas arrived at the Hospital. When they saw us, their tears immediately fell. I think this is the most painful thing that happened to us. We all blame ourselves for what happened. I also heard the excessive crying of Jarred's father. He also blames himself because he also has no knowledge of what his son is going through. I also learned one thing today: I was complacent that our friendship were the best, but I was wrong. Despite our happy friendship, there is a sad reality hiding behind it. You don't really control everything. No matter how long and solid our relationship is, we still don't really know each other. Jarred is the type who takes all his problems to himself. We never once thought to ask if he had a problem. He is our peace officer, but he's the one who literally keeps quiet. I really hope it's all just a dream.

To be continued...

@Jazzryl 10/30/23
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