I needed to clear my head as much as it hurt me to fly away from her I couldn't bare the sight of her. It hurt so much to see first hand what I had done to such a strong beautiful soul. I knew I had destroyed her and I couldn't bare the pain I felt I had to escape it and be alone.
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Nothing stabbed deeper into my already broken heart like watching him leave me again. It had been so many years since I had seen his beautiful face and I drove him away I fell to my knees and began to sob, I didn't know what else to do.
I destroyed my family sent my demons to the pits and disappointed Lucifer so greatly he too left me. Once more I was left alone and heartbroken. I didn't just want Lucifer by my side I needed him to help guide me. I was always my most genuine self when I was with him and I...