I was 16 when my first relationship started. I was so excited and and i was imagining my future with him, marriage, family, house, childrens. But he doesn't care about it all, he just wanted to be with someone, who care for him, who support him, to be not feel alone, who can love him, because he was thinking he is so alone and he don't have anyone for all those things. and that time i was doing all those things and i just wanted a long term relationship which ends with marriage not breakup. He doesn't think about my feelings and my desire about him. He never wanted to marry me Or have kids with me, He never thought about it. He was just kept his deepest secret without thinking about me. I took time but i finally figured out everything about him , and when I known all about him, and after a long time he shared his deepest secret with me, I was shocked. For his happiness I told him I was okay with all that shit, but I wasn't okay with that, That thing was hurting me and I was continue lied to him that I was fine. And one day I was feeling different but good and I was decided to text him about my feelings , and I did. after some time he read my text and called me, he said 'Tanvi, why all these things, you said you okay with it, and why are you saying all these. please don't leave me, I am all alone, I don't have anybody who love me, who care for me, who listened to me please Tanvi don't leave me '. He was crying on call, so I said I am not breaking up with you, okay, please stop crying. But that time I didn't meant it. I wanted a break up, I was tired of him. but then I can't say anything to him, but I was really tried of how he treats me, I never felt myself special with him. I don't wanted him to treat me like a princess or a queen, I just wanted to feel loved and more happy than my casual day. I want him to treat me like his special thing that he never ever wanna lose in his life. but after two months of relationship I felt like he don't have any interest in me , I was felt ignorance. he wasn't talk good to me and wasn't listen to me. So on a good day I decided to told him that I can't pick your calls, I am so poor my studies so I have to study hard and get good marks, and also I know I disturbed you and don't tell me, so from now we will not talk. He was agreed without any questions. And I was understood that I was a distraction for him. And it was like a breakup for me. I was fucking happy, I was studying and hanging out with my friends, I was enjoyed everyday after I left him, I never thought of him nor I missed him. I was just so happy and I didn't had any tention or stressed.

And I am not saying he was all wrong, I did some mistakes too, but like everyone else I never known what I did. I was just feeling so happy. And I didn't had to lie to myself. I was living my life. ❤❤





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