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I Read It Once, and Then Twice, and I Hadn't Imagined It - I Had Won The Lottery!!
#WritcoStoryPrompt3
Or, another thing, about other things, and how we feel about the things that are in relation to things, because that is how things work.
Well almost, I had the winning numbers. Oh! Sorry, this is confusing. Let me tell you about those numbers within the context of my most recent grande self deception, when all I wanted, really, was genuine, regular hugs.
Is there a term for the phenomena of convincing those around you of the "obvious", then the obvious thing doesn't come true?
Yes. It is called “The Pattern Aggrandizement of Self-Delusion.”
Well, no, I made that up, but if there were, it would definitely be something close to it!
By a show of hands, who else has been in a near constant state of awakening and suicidal ideation? Yeah? Me neither.
"Anyhoo", one of the realizations I had sprang from the analysis of my accrued data metrics that addressed “whether or not”, in aggregate, “listening to my ‘gut' had the generalized overall result being beneficial, certainly positive, and nice feeling upon post examinations of my necessarily subjective experience of the undocumented events as remembered after the fact".
What I learned was ‘jaw dropping.’
My life had generally been a sucky, or not, perspective is relative to one’s “taste” and experience, it’s whatever. Since then, I have been on The most chaotic wild ride in memory! THE SEDUCTIVE PART in adventure stories is this other fact, that is has ALSO been the most mind-bogglingly creative and satisfying periods sporadic creative output!!
The crises, personally and in the country had also been, I am reluctant to use the term “siesmic" living in the Bay area as I do, but it had been siesmic!
In many, many ways that could be exhaustive at this point, yet profound, I was the same me, but in a different place and time. “
The a poignant question occurred to me, “what is the most consistent random thing to occur in my life?”
Without hesitation, the thought manifested within my expansive mind, “420”. The appearance of the thought, so suddenly and firmly declared within my mind, that I decided it lended the idea a sort of “firm, yet assertive feeling”, without the creep of some aggressive thoughts into the blank spaces of mental silence. Now my DNA dictates thoughrt must hunt down and fill those spaces, like a cat chasing a laser.
Aggressive? "Nope go away."
Firm and assertive?
“Why hello, I like the cut of your jib! You are obviously too charming to not have a clearly landed credence. Yes, obvious validity!
Now mind you, I am not a pot smoker. Sure, in the past I liked to “loosen the screws", but for me the experience went like this, "Has anyone seen my glasses? How about my keys? Dammit, my wallet was here a second ago” I loose the screws all together.
You feel me?
Since I was 16, you would not credit as believable how many times I have wondered, just what time is it was? What makes us slow time down like that?
I would look at a clock, and, you guessed it, 1 out of 10 times, exactly 420! Those are high odds for such a random occurrence!
It happened so much that I have been using it as a running joke for over 10 years now. Even going as far as to text my partner every time it happens to try and share the weirdness of it.
It did not even occur to me to wonder, “I wonder what it could...
Or, another thing, about other things, and how we feel about the things that are in relation to things, because that is how things work.
Well almost, I had the winning numbers. Oh! Sorry, this is confusing. Let me tell you about those numbers within the context of my most recent grande self deception, when all I wanted, really, was genuine, regular hugs.
Is there a term for the phenomena of convincing those around you of the "obvious", then the obvious thing doesn't come true?
Yes. It is called “The Pattern Aggrandizement of Self-Delusion.”
Well, no, I made that up, but if there were, it would definitely be something close to it!
By a show of hands, who else has been in a near constant state of awakening and suicidal ideation? Yeah? Me neither.
"Anyhoo", one of the realizations I had sprang from the analysis of my accrued data metrics that addressed “whether or not”, in aggregate, “listening to my ‘gut' had the generalized overall result being beneficial, certainly positive, and nice feeling upon post examinations of my necessarily subjective experience of the undocumented events as remembered after the fact".
What I learned was ‘jaw dropping.’
My life had generally been a sucky, or not, perspective is relative to one’s “taste” and experience, it’s whatever. Since then, I have been on The most chaotic wild ride in memory! THE SEDUCTIVE PART in adventure stories is this other fact, that is has ALSO been the most mind-bogglingly creative and satisfying periods sporadic creative output!!
The crises, personally and in the country had also been, I am reluctant to use the term “siesmic" living in the Bay area as I do, but it had been siesmic!
In many, many ways that could be exhaustive at this point, yet profound, I was the same me, but in a different place and time. “
The a poignant question occurred to me, “what is the most consistent random thing to occur in my life?”
Without hesitation, the thought manifested within my expansive mind, “420”. The appearance of the thought, so suddenly and firmly declared within my mind, that I decided it lended the idea a sort of “firm, yet assertive feeling”, without the creep of some aggressive thoughts into the blank spaces of mental silence. Now my DNA dictates thoughrt must hunt down and fill those spaces, like a cat chasing a laser.
Aggressive? "Nope go away."
Firm and assertive?
“Why hello, I like the cut of your jib! You are obviously too charming to not have a clearly landed credence. Yes, obvious validity!
Now mind you, I am not a pot smoker. Sure, in the past I liked to “loosen the screws", but for me the experience went like this, "Has anyone seen my glasses? How about my keys? Dammit, my wallet was here a second ago” I loose the screws all together.
You feel me?
Since I was 16, you would not credit as believable how many times I have wondered, just what time is it was? What makes us slow time down like that?
I would look at a clock, and, you guessed it, 1 out of 10 times, exactly 420! Those are high odds for such a random occurrence!
It happened so much that I have been using it as a running joke for over 10 years now. Even going as far as to text my partner every time it happens to try and share the weirdness of it.
It did not even occur to me to wonder, “I wonder what it could...
