Our life is pretty bad it's cruel, folish and some time does not make any sense. it has alot of problems , it has many black dots .alot of things we have foreced to deal with on our days just to continue in this grim life..... You have imagined all of that ,,it is time to have a look over your whole life . the truth is that life isn't bad the way you think, acaully it is not that heaven that you dream, it is a mixture of both but be confident that it is so balanced .we can not neither confirm or denay if the life is good or bad. In the other hand .the more you are in pain the more you have merci and it is your decision how to see your life. You have alot of brilliant things in your life but it remains not completed but it is like a sea it doesn't go away even if it remain ander the sun so do not matter about water evapourates . personally, the most wisdom thing is to be receptive ,to recpect what life is and to anderstand what is the game of life to take your turn and be the one who say "game over " at the end of it .