[Not a poem]
...
My bestfriend once told me about his childhood incident when a girl leaned her head on his shoulder and held his hand and he let that be...
I always wondered if I could ever be so vulnerable with someone. I have never given myself a chance to trust a guy. I was always scared and away from them .
He was the first one to make me feel... Safe.
Even though he knew i have feelings, he never took advantage of that. I really respect him for that.
Thank you so much!
I always thought what could change his thoughts about me but i realised that, some things are not going to intersect. They are meant to be parallel.

I, as a kid always had seen the negative world around. I was bullied, harassed, and traumatized.
Worst part?
I always have this feeling that my parents love my brother more than me. My grandparents love my brother more than me. Relatives too.
Maybe because he's too ideal and I'm the opposite.

Never felt so sad... Today seems different. It feels jumbled.
Do i deserve nothing after all?
How does being loved feel like?

© Rajvik