Has It ever occurs to you that people are most likely happy with you when you can do something for them, at least some people are like that.

I feel like I'm trap in a world among people's who are only happy when I can do something for them, when I can give something, when I can help them out. I do not understand it. I do not understand anything.

I'm hurting, I'm hurting by the way I'm being treated at times. Do you not see my pain, do you not hear me crying? My heart has been broken a thousands times. A thousands shattering pieces of glasses is hard to fine. Do you not see my heart bleeding?
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