It doesn’t matter how many days go by, although it’s been many years, a decade ago. Those painful memories still linger. And they still haunt me. I wish I could turn back time and fix things just to have her alive again and well and healthy. I guess everything happens for a reason. They say that The Lord is the best of planners but I didn’t know he would test me like that. That night when he took away my only best friend and the person whom I was very close to. My beloved auntie who was like a second mother to me was gone in a blink of an eye. Brutally murdered and it seemed like no one cared and no one even considered to help her, not even her close ones. That night she reached out for help but it was too late and the man that killed her didn’t even stop or think for a second how much it would affect those around her for taking away a good soul who always cared about her loved ones including her little daughter. Why is there so much evil in this world. Why do good people suffer. It’s true that God takes away good souls just as you see what’s happening in Gaza. Behind her mask there was a lot of pain. Nor did she ever speak about her problems in front of me. God tested me by taking away my father who has always been absent in my life and then he took away my auntie and all my other close relatives and companions. Maybe The Lord loves me so therefore he tests me. I wish the police had done something. My auntie made 3 phone calls to the police, but by the time they arrived. She was gone. What could have I done? In my own world playing at the age of 14. Little did I even think about helping her. Although I could sense danger, but my caregiver helped her but my auntie couldn’t be helped. Nor did I get to say goodbye but I did. She would call every single day to check up on me. She was a good role model. I can’t get over the death of my auntie, and the person who is behind this. Do they not feel any remorse. This is the worst thing out of all the other things that I have been through. We live in a crazy world where evil lingers in every corner. The more killing and blood shed there is, the more evil consumes this earth. And humans need to know that they are responsible for creating bad evil energy on this earth by following evil and for not following God’s path. You are in danger. I never had it easy and I don’t think no one ever has. Appreciate your loved ones, you don’t know how much time you have with them. This world is a test, and everything you see here on this earth is a false reality. Humans we are living in delusion. This is a delusional world. The ending times are near and hold on to The Lord Almighty. He will protect you. And as for me, I have a lot of healing to do. I wish I had died instead of my auntie so that my niece would have had her mother. I wish I was taken out of this horrible world where there are pedophiles and psychopaths preying on vulnerable souls. What a horrible world we live in. This world is just a pass time for me and I can’t wait to see my Lord. I’m the black sheep of the family. Nor do I fit in or belong anywhere. I miss you my sweet auntie, you were so caring and kind. Allah is taking care of you now. And we all miss you. I guess everything happens for a reason. Since this world is a test. I’m more grateful and appreciative although the trauma still lingers and I don’t think I will be able to get over my loved one but time is short and limited in preparing for my final destination which is my grave and i will meet my creator and give him. a big hug and I will say thanks for taking me out of this horrible world. Cradle me Lord mighty please make me feel safe. You said this world is full of tests and indeed it is. You test everyone and I know every pain will be worth it. To Allah we belong, and to Allah we will all return.
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