My existence on earth has been filled with longing ,wanting ,hoping for a person to be all I need ,all I want but has I began existing I met different people who didn't even come near to what wanted but because they existed I created an unreal presentation of them in my head and every day ,every night I'd polish it with imaginations and delusions of them being the person they obviously are not but it's what I wanted to see them has .Some treated me terribly ,some took advantage,some took me for granted...