Time isn't appointed to anyone we appoint time to ourselves and others by saying I'll be there at 8 or you be here at 9. Joiner had this way of not sitting her time on nothing because time didn't matter to her. Timing is everything as the saying goes because we make it so but in retrospect the Lord is the real time setter.
Joiner had one thing in mind and it was to wait on the right person to spend her time with. Yeah Paul is the one that she wants but Paul might not want her and she understands that. Now this woman knows that you might be attracted to someone and they might be attracted to you but that too can change without any notice.
The phone rang it was Janet hey girl what you doing she asked. Thinking Joiner said no girl don't that, that can get you in trouble Janet said laughing. Come ride with me to the mall she said I don't really want or need anything I'm just tired of staying home.
Getting to Janet's house Joiner noticed that Paul was over to his sister's Sally house.
She got out and went in Joiner had this look on her that said I am not up for this. Look Janet I changed my mind she said I'll go with you next time and she left. Joiner got back home she was bored nothing was happening.
Later on that day after lunch time Sally called
Sally and Joiner grew up together they never hung out together but if one or the others needed to talk they were there for each other. Their conversation was always between the two of them and it's still that way today. They wasn't very close but real friend don't have to be. What's up Joiner asked I'm just checking on you. I hadn't talk to you since my party, I'm good they talked for a while and hung up.
Joiner lived in their old family house that she had remodeled with all the latest. It being old she had no water pressure and the water is kinda rusted. Oh Lord her mind went well now Paul is the well man and the only one in town. Joiner called the number that he had been calling her with but didn't get an answer
The next morning she called the office number the lady on the phone told her that he was out on a call taking Joiner imfo.
A couple hours later the day Paul's well drilling truck pulled up in Joiner's yard but it wasn't Paul. Ms Cash the driver asked as he got out of the truck. He went and checked things out, Ms cash the motor on your pump is going out it's too old he said. We could put on another pump but we'll have to order it.
This one will last until the new one comes in and we'll come back and install it.
After the young man left Paul called I saw your number on my cell he said is something wrong. Your office has taken care of the problem or will when the new motor comes in she said. That motor is older than you he said, yeah but it still works Joiner said being flip at the mouth. Yeah but it's going out now he said. Who came out James he asked yes a nice young man. I better come over there and make sure things are ok he just started and still learning.
Hours Paul's 4×4 pulled up Joiner watched as he got out to come in. Neatly dress shirt tucked in loose fit belt not tight just riding in the loops. Even his work uniform look good on him she thought I see why so many women pay him so much attention. Joiner kinda leaned her head to the side and shook it.
What he asked ? why you looking at me like that. Come in it's hot can I offer you something cold to drink. No thanks this is a business call I need to check things out he said walking through to the kitchen. Can I go out this door to get to the well he asked.
Joiner opened the door he didn't move he just stood there looking at her. Joiner looked back not saying anything but feeling a lot.
Look I'm still on the clock and I try to practice the things that I preach to my trainees. I want them to be very professional
but some things make it very hard he said walking out to the well. He checked the water pressure and the pressure gauge here's the problem he said not the pump.
Paul went to the truck got a new gage.
Where's your breaker box, over here Joiner said. Paul killed the power to bleed the pump
he opened the valve to run the water out.
It being 5 he was now off the business clock standing there looking at the water flow said. Why you left Danny? that's not professional she said it's 5 I'm off the clock.
She took a minute and thought tell him the truth just like it is.
Ok, she said we were friends and he asked me out we started seeing each other.
We starting getting close a he got forceful
it wasn't anything physical it was emotional.
I started to pay him more attention but the more attentive I was the more forceful he got
His talk went from nice to aggressive
he tried to make me love him. He didn't understand that the more forceful he was
the love he had to give. He went from asking me to telling me. We didn't work together I did what he told me to do.
He lost everything loving about him our love making turned into sex. I'm not only talking about just the sex part there was intimacy. I love you here and there but no
intimacy we had sex no love making.
Instead of being the man that he was he wanted to be more manly and pushed me away. We didn't talked he talked I didn't know what else to do so I left. I didn't want to make a big deal out of things.
Forceful was what he wanted to be but what he couldn't understand was forgetfulness was the very thing that turns me off. Aggressiveness kills the love and it's so so little love anymore. And Paul I want to keep mine. If had stayed with him I would have become all the things that turns me off
I would have no love to give. So I left.
And I don't want meanness to invade my love and kill it replacing it with something else. Paul looked at her and said most men think that if they are nice to a woman she'll dog them so they are aggressive
They start out nice and loving but why don't they stay that way Paul. So that's why you won't let me get close to you I'm aggressive
to you. Yes said as she turned and walked in the back door. No intimacy. It's all sexual no intimacy. See we non forceful
non aggressive type are Not trying to change the forceful, aggressive type into a non forceful non aggressive type.
We just think that the forceful, aggressive should be with the forceful, aggressive type. We don't want you to change and be nice just don't try to change me.
So that's how you see me he asked no Paul
I'm just not your type. But I can't allow you to change me in to your type. There are so little of the nonsense left I'm one of them
and I want to stay less trendy.
Don't get mad for me being less trendy.
You like what you like I'm just not that.
I respect you for who you are I will never try to change you but don't get mad at me for Not changing into what you want.

I've been asked to leave so

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