Its so cold here today how all i want to do is lay down an sleep for i do not know of such thing every part of my body hurts from what they have done day in an day out to me. I know one day all this will soon be over even if I go home to be with my Love Jesus Christ for how I do long to be with him. One day he will come and take me in his arms take me home for he had to go and make sure everything woud be just right for me to come home for he Jesus Christ wanted to make sure. I have felt his pain in his words as I read them of what they did to him. For all he ever did was Love them even when they beaten him and put him on a cross for nothing for did nothing wrong in our Gods eyes or in my. For before they even urted him as they did our God did indeed give them chooses. He still has so much hope an faith so as I in every one even for the very ones that beats on me an rape me. I may never understand why they do as they did for in my heart I know they are in the wrong and I know they know for these men an women are very smart. I ask God to help me understand them. For if I even did half of what they did to him. I couldnt live with myself. Even now I still do not see all I see when they are not looking is pain that they do not understand. I know Ill never will know their reasons thats okay with me. For one day for all they have done my Love My king, My Lord, My Maker,My Father, My God, MY GOD will see to it they will know his pain for hurting his child for hurtting Jesus Christ for Hurting him My God turning their backs acting as a Fool makeing others think they do not HIm My Lord for indeed all do. He still loves them still has hope still believe that maybe if he does enough to show all he is the almight he is the one that can give and take he rules everything their will never be any other but him. He loves all so much an cares. I know people thinks money can buy you happenest yes indeed you can have what you like. Soon what you buy with money will fade but his love will never. In the Bible it is told said writen all will be judge I to will have to stand before him this I know. But this I know he will not turn his back on me that day he will open his arms welcome home my child well done. How many of you went out side today talked to someone you didnt know any one in fact and didnt care what could be the out come all that matter to you was showing him when you said you loved him that he lived inside you that you knew him you couldnt help your self it didnt matter who it was you wanted them to know just how great he was???? Many even the ones that gos to church say they are christians when they said they knew him he lived in their hearts inside them they were able to judge, do what only God our Father could but they thought they could. No man human in fact should ever think just because who they are what job they have they have power to order any one around to tell them where they could go be friends to even talk. how they are aloud to dress if they do not listen they are put to death they are beaten so many things are done. If I tell them no my blood his blood falls to the ground again he is hurt over an over again. Its funny this world crys out for peace,Love, happenest, for brotherhood, an sistershood for everyone to come together as one. As I look out in to this world it is said then way we keep acting as we do. I can not fix the world I do not want to all I am trying to do i am hoping soon these fools these that puts out to be so big an bad really they are not they need him they just do not want to face the facts they messed up and yes it hurts true love does if God didnt love you an what i am saying is when I relized what I had done in my passed I felt so little I felt words could never tell you how felt knowing I did what I did to him My God that never never wanted me to feel pain never wanted me to know what it was like to tell one I loved him in the pass then turned around thought he wouldnt know but he knows all when we mess up I know in my pass when i did things i knew i should not off for he told me if you do this this will happen or if you did this this will happen i do mess up at times just like every one eles let me say this tho not a second longer after i know what i did i go run to him now for it has been a very long time i am not moving he has to make me move. i know when i am closed to him everything will be okay. pray for these people that does these mean an hurtful things not to me but others as well.
© carolyn L Barbe