Looking back on all the things I have done in my life, I don't understand why I am still here dealing with the same old shit. Starting from birth I have always been independent as well as a loner. I tried to stay to myself and out of everyone's way as well as their face. Mainly because, I've always felt unwanted and like an outsider. Don't get me wrong though, I've always wanted to be lovex and wanted be my parents. It just seemed to never be reciprocated on their end. An even though, I was the quiet child that tried to stay away from everyone; I was also everyone's favorite. I am going to tell you all a story about my not so simple life. Even though, NO ONE WILL EVER ADMIT TO ANY OF THE THINGS I'M ABOUT TO TELL YOU ALL TO BE TRUE; IT ACTUALLY HAPPENED AND IT DESTORYED ME AS WELL.....

When I was 4 years old or younger when I started performing oral sex on a man that was supposed to be my mother's boyfriend. My mother would go off to work and my siblings would go off to school while I had to stay home with the monster. He...