Abruptly it has came to an end.
Damn...., Again I should of listen to that lil voice inside my head!!???

Is it me?
The mindful voice asks me, inside my head.
I hear it reasoning with me.
Pointing out the good from the bad.
Warning me from what's ahead.

I blocked it out. Proceeded to take action..allowing myself to be sad.
It's me.
No one loves me because I'm just so bad. Whenever they look at me I know they're thinking the worst of me.
Ashamed I'm always hanging my head.
Scared so I never allow anyone in.
My own mother couldn't love me.
pitiful are one of the many words she has said.
I hear her voice inside my head telling me I'm not shit ... I'm nothing, ... over and over again.
I try and reason with myself once again.
in a calm tone I tell myself ... No worries .. there's a brightness ahead.
Don't let it control you.
You'll over come your past.

It's me.
I hear that sound of reasoning inside my head.
I blocked it out.
Until another voice tells me I'm beautiful. Your going to make it thru.

I couldn't understand why it's crazy if you hear voices. Why it's so punishable to listen.
That voice ... , sometimes voices.. helped me reason
to make
the right choices.
A voice I found to hear when I needed comfort.
Voices I heard give me the answers yet I went off still making bad choices.
Am I crazy?
Am I crazy for seeing that my mind is important. Those voices serve a purpose. yet....
If I talk about them I'm a crazy person!
They are not real?
They are a part of me for a reason!!!.
To only start to listen.
No more rejection.
I'm not crazy. I'm trying to make a connection.
A connection that brings me further then where I am.
I have started to open up to listen to the voices in my head.
I think it's not so bad to finally accept that those voices have been a secret to my being on the right path.
Now there's a lil voice that asks me... if maybe there's others who see the same.
Why is it so scary, to the point of being called crazy ...or insane??
to let those voices inside my head guide me?

Today just try to listen. Will it help you make better choices?
If they don't then ..choose to walk away... if they follow you, just ignore them ..although, they'll never go away..
That's what's crazy! Embrace those voices. To ignore them may be what's driving me/you insane!! Just a thought.
Let that voice inside you ... say, Have a great day!




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