3 is not only my favorite number but also the amount of people I love intimately, emotionally, and mentally connect with. They each fill apart of me and when I try to be "normal" and try to stop thinking about the other 2 while I'm with my spouse of 10yrs and our 3 children.

Why isn't my family enough for me?
Why isn't my spouse enough for me?
Why isn't 1 person's love good enough for me?

I could ask why all day but it's not helping me and I can't unloved who I'm in love with. I've gotten dumped by one of my lovers, he's not wanting to stay connected and continue with our relationship due to not wanting or understanding to share me. I'm deeply hurt because the emotional connection is still there and now I have to grieve a lost love. I'm not trying to connect with anyone else I emotionally couldn't handle because I stay loyal to the ones I love I don't break it and go find another I patiently wait for my love to return and I feel whole again.

My soul and heart are at rest knowing I've told him how I truly felt about our relationship and know that it might...