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To my love
5:20 SHIMLA
17/3/2024
I am so much confused you know like really I feel breathless, something in my head is pushing me to quit and something in my heart is giving me hope to carry on. I am really tired and I feel I need more and more oxygen otherwise I surely will die inside my heart is broken in such a way that even my eyes have betrayed me and I really pray to get tears but dont get a drop of tear. The thing that reality hits hard breks me million times apart but what can I do rather to accept it nothing is in my hands. I am so sick of myself I swear i feel like a bomb that is about to blast the pressure is piercing my chest and I just am tired of everything I swear it is getting hard each and every day I really am tired of myself.
"Why can't I love and if u do why can't I get the people I love and if I get why can't I end up with the people I love"?
Has someone cursed Me Or anything else is there. Look Canım first of all remember one thing you can't love in this lifetime until you are marriage that's it and like in ancient times people used to marry without knowing each other you will end up like the same.This is the rule just accept it and yaaa to your happy crush what do you know about him what what what nothing. you just know his face and nothing about him and yaa he hangs out with gilrs in college either seniors or of his class and he has a girlfriend and he lives his life freely. it is just me who is getting pain inside. If he would have been simply crush I would have forgotten him a long time ago but look a years has passed and I still have place for him in my heart and I can't forget him and yaaa how can you just say it is a crush stuff and it will end nope it is not just crush he is more than that he breaks my heart whenever I look at him. Why am I giving myself so much pain why?. bak hayatım, aşkın seni milyon parçaya ayıracak.
At first it used to be just eye contact but now he is breaking me inside may be because I want to approach him and I know the reality is that even if we both confess at the end after some years he is going to marry someone else and I am going to marry someone else. If there is no future then why do you still want him. Yes I swear to God and to my life that he is not meant to be with me. You know what it breaks my life not just heart and I am not even able to study a line because inside my heart the pain is not letting me even breath. Tomorrow suppose I go to him greet him and aşk hin for his number and tell him that I have no bad intentions it is just I want your help with my exams I know he will give and what is the use of it nothing because even if I talked with him it will become more painful for me and yaaa suppose we got in a relationship at the end how will I face him what and how I am sorry I can't marry you because of these reasons and my parents arranged a match for me. Someone who is both financially, mentally, social and in every aspect he is sound suppose suppose we take it as an example. İt means I gave you pain and nothing else. I just don't want to hurt you. And you know what I am watching kara sevda the most amazing series ever made. İt broke me into pieces but that pain is nothing compared to yours. What should I do like what. I am really burning inside...
You know what I even think sometimes what if it is just one sided love like what if you don't even know me and I don't even exist for you. Yaa surely it can happen too..
The answer is that I want to love you to such extent where if we are in a situation to save just one of us I would happily give my life for you. Yes I really mean it I do. For that is it too much if I ask I want to love you.
I know disteny is not in my hands and never will be but yaaa I know after I am 27 I will get married and that time you would be in your world and I in mine and I would fall in love with that one..
You know what I wanted you to be that person that's the only difference. How amazing it would have been if you could have been that person. I wanted you my dear crush I wanted you to be that person and unless you leave from that college it will keep hurting me alot ABD önce you are gone it will break me to the fullest because when you were in college i had the hope to see you at least for 30 minutes but önce you are gone where will I find you.
I want to do one thing from today onwards. Lately I have realized that one must live the moments and so does apply for you I want to live in the moments when I am around you. I want to keep looking at your eyes everytime and I know at the end of the day it breaks me really so much that I want to cry on a alone mountain but since you are destined to leave at any cost why not I make memories in these 3 years and let them be an evidence of you for upcoming 65 years or like till I am get old and then die. I will bear the pain in these three years no matter what
that's my promise to myself
© reminisce
17/3/2024
I am so much confused you know like really I feel breathless, something in my head is pushing me to quit and something in my heart is giving me hope to carry on. I am really tired and I feel I need more and more oxygen otherwise I surely will die inside my heart is broken in such a way that even my eyes have betrayed me and I really pray to get tears but dont get a drop of tear. The thing that reality hits hard breks me million times apart but what can I do rather to accept it nothing is in my hands. I am so sick of myself I swear i feel like a bomb that is about to blast the pressure is piercing my chest and I just am tired of everything I swear it is getting hard each and every day I really am tired of myself.
"Why can't I love and if u do why can't I get the people I love and if I get why can't I end up with the people I love"?
Has someone cursed Me Or anything else is there. Look Canım first of all remember one thing you can't love in this lifetime until you are marriage that's it and like in ancient times people used to marry without knowing each other you will end up like the same.This is the rule just accept it and yaaa to your happy crush what do you know about him what what what nothing. you just know his face and nothing about him and yaa he hangs out with gilrs in college either seniors or of his class and he has a girlfriend and he lives his life freely. it is just me who is getting pain inside. If he would have been simply crush I would have forgotten him a long time ago but look a years has passed and I still have place for him in my heart and I can't forget him and yaaa how can you just say it is a crush stuff and it will end nope it is not just crush he is more than that he breaks my heart whenever I look at him. Why am I giving myself so much pain why?. bak hayatım, aşkın seni milyon parçaya ayıracak.
At first it used to be just eye contact but now he is breaking me inside may be because I want to approach him and I know the reality is that even if we both confess at the end after some years he is going to marry someone else and I am going to marry someone else. If there is no future then why do you still want him. Yes I swear to God and to my life that he is not meant to be with me. You know what it breaks my life not just heart and I am not even able to study a line because inside my heart the pain is not letting me even breath. Tomorrow suppose I go to him greet him and aşk hin for his number and tell him that I have no bad intentions it is just I want your help with my exams I know he will give and what is the use of it nothing because even if I talked with him it will become more painful for me and yaaa suppose we got in a relationship at the end how will I face him what and how I am sorry I can't marry you because of these reasons and my parents arranged a match for me. Someone who is both financially, mentally, social and in every aspect he is sound suppose suppose we take it as an example. İt means I gave you pain and nothing else. I just don't want to hurt you. And you know what I am watching kara sevda the most amazing series ever made. İt broke me into pieces but that pain is nothing compared to yours. What should I do like what. I am really burning inside...
You know what I even think sometimes what if it is just one sided love like what if you don't even know me and I don't even exist for you. Yaa surely it can happen too..
The answer is that I want to love you to such extent where if we are in a situation to save just one of us I would happily give my life for you. Yes I really mean it I do. For that is it too much if I ask I want to love you.
I know disteny is not in my hands and never will be but yaaa I know after I am 27 I will get married and that time you would be in your world and I in mine and I would fall in love with that one..
You know what I wanted you to be that person that's the only difference. How amazing it would have been if you could have been that person. I wanted you my dear crush I wanted you to be that person and unless you leave from that college it will keep hurting me alot ABD önce you are gone it will break me to the fullest because when you were in college i had the hope to see you at least for 30 minutes but önce you are gone where will I find you.
I want to do one thing from today onwards. Lately I have realized that one must live the moments and so does apply for you I want to live in the moments when I am around you. I want to keep looking at your eyes everytime and I know at the end of the day it breaks me really so much that I want to cry on a alone mountain but since you are destined to leave at any cost why not I make memories in these 3 years and let them be an evidence of you for upcoming 65 years or like till I am get old and then die. I will bear the pain in these three years no matter what
that's my promise to myself
© reminisce
