"I never thought u would go."

"I never thought u would let me." I could feel her_disappointment just like she could sense my anguish and anger upon my tied hands when she whispered those words averting her gaze.

"It's not like we will die without each other.", She forced a smile on her face to accompany her words but_could manage_only half of_it.

"No. We won't. Even though we said we would once to each other." I said and smiled. It wasn't a forced_one but a fake one.

She saw through it and held my hand. "Promise me. You will not harm ur - self. U will not even think about it. Promise me now".

I hugged her one last time and just like that, a silent promise was made.

She left right after this conversation. It was too_hard for us to remain in the presence of each other. Ironically, we were_once inseparable.

Just like that, I was left behind_with just the memories of our past.

It has been 5years now and I am married but_this memory is still fresh like this happened just yesterday.

She left behind everything thing that day but not_my heart. She took it with her.

Since then, I have been_living with a heart - shaped hole in my chest.

She doesn't know. My wife. She doesn't know.

She just thinks that I have always been a cold - hearted man. Someone who's emotional equivalency can't even rival a stone.

She thinks that I can only feel strong emotions because they deliver a blow with a massive force. The force which_leaves strong residue even after being absorbed.

No one ever told her the truth. Not even me.

Others were worried about the consequences and I just didn't care enough to ever let her in my past.

I agreed to marry someone - else just for the sake of (our) love and my families wishes.

After all family wishes cost us our own. How else could I have remembered to hate them? How could I have let all of their ploys and emotional drama go to waste? They needed the win and I gave them one. I couldn't let my family lose. After all, this is what being a good son means. They never cared that their win pushed their son away from them.

This world is a funny place and memories are even_funnier. They hit u back when u expect the least. Sometimes they make u smile and nostalgic; just like the memory of your first class bunking or your first kiss or as simple as sitting on the rooftop along with your friends and talking about your dreams or who would win the fight between Undertaker and Kane. They make your day by bringing back the best hours lost in time.

Other times, they make your bad day worse by reminding you of_the regrets_of actions u took or didn't, people you_couldn't forgive, promises u_couldn't keep, people u lost, moments u couldn't live, the hands u couldn't hold, the goodbyes you had to bid, those 5 more minutes that u didnt ask for and the happy ever after that your story never got.
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