PROVERBS 31:8-9

8. Speak up for those who cannot speak.
   Speak for the cause of all who are left behind.
9. Speak up, judge fairly.
   Defend the oppressed and the needy.


    So, okay. This will be my first post for this blog. And, i have to begin my blog with a promise to all my readers (I pray for atleast 5 readers by next month) lol

         I promise to always keep my blog 100% Truth. I promise to always leave fear where it belongs; in the dark somewhere. I promise to always write in the light. That is how I'll shine. Illuminating the word the holy spirit is moving me to share with yall. 

     You see, I had this nice "pre-written", perfectly edited, perfectly plastic post to use as my introduction/ first blog entry. But, after a month of feeling like a failure because, my dream of finally becoming a writer & Blogger wasn't working. Hell I couldn't even get the first entry published. Lol why? I realize, it just wasn't me. I couldn't even post it And I don't want to give ya'll a version of me that is edited, and proof-read. It just felt so, un-real. And not in a good way. Un-real as in, fake, aka, plastic, aka store bought. And I am definitely not available in stores. ;)

     So, I’m reading my bible a little while ago... and the holy spirit was asking me when I was finally going to post my blog and begin writing. I got sad suddenly, and told Jesus why I wasn’t able to start my blog. I was so afraid to just say the truth about myself… it’s like I was ashamed of who I am. I realized it with the holy spirits help… I came across the verse I quoted above, and the holy spirit asked me to do what the verse said. Only, when i stand up and speak out... to do it for the little girl inside ME. The one that dreamed of being a famous writer one day. The little girl that never felt good enough to even try. The one who had given up on her dreams before she was even a teenager. she got so used to being disappointed by everyone she ever depended on. The only person she now has left is herself. And she couldn't fail herself. It is not an option. If I could speak for the voiceless, then who better? The little girl that everyone seen so much talent in. But for the life of her, she never could see it herself. The one that took care of everyone around her. The one that had never went to a dentist because she had no adult around her to care enough to take her. The beautiful little girl that never realized how special she really was. How unique. How rare, and how beautiful she really was. The girl that didn't have a childhood. Never got to believe in magic. Because nothing magical ever happened to her. The holy spirit told me to speak up for her. To pretend that she was in darkness and the only way I can let her free and out here in God's light, is to speak up for her. And I think the holy spirit is on to something yall! lol because, the only trouble I'm having right now, is being able to see to type through my tears. Not because I’m sad. Or I feel sorry for myself. I am so excited, and full of so much love to share! Because, spirit told me... there are so many more little girls out there right now. That have nobody to speak up for them. They're all in darkness. They're all praying for just one person to love them.

         I'm gonna share a secret with ya'll... Magic is real! It is love. When you add love to anything it becomes more. It is how babies are made and formed in a mother's womb. It is superhuman. It's a 5 foot tall little woman picking up a full sized vehicle to get it off her children. It is a 12 year old boy born unable to walk, until a preacher lays his hands on his legs and speaks the powerful word of God into the situation. And the boy is healed. Yes its real. And I'm going to show you that an everyday girl like myself can work miracles too. All you have to do, is put love in it. Aka put God in it, and have faith... and anything is possible.

        I have faith that God will show this to the right person. The one that can read my truth. And have it heal them... how? It's like this, if you stand up and speak up for the voiceless. If its the truth, and done with a pure heart full of love... then it will be felt. Thus it will be healing to someone. 

     Picture it this way: just by me...