A trip down memory lane

There was a time when I went around wondering if I could ever truly find love. To me it was just a fantasy, a picture painted by many who acted in movies, just a facade of what was reality. I had far too many experiences in heartbreak. Being tricked by an older guy who used the idea of me trying to reach out to someone else as an opportunity to have me fall for the wrong guy, mind you I'm not crazy; well alittle, but I didn't meet the guy, yes his school was on the other side of the hill but, we only communicated via SMS.
We were so hoping to meet soon, and then I lost his number, and in the desperate attempt to get to him I came up with a few digits I vividly remembered and got to someone who said he was indeed Johnny, my heart sang praises and I fell.
Little did I know on the day I met up with him I'd be meeting a grown ass man twice my age.
I'm not gonna lie I was quite prissy so I did sleep with him but ended things thereafter...some may see it as being slutty but well it's just the truth.
Ha .... I told him they found a hubby for me at church and I had to get married to the guy, yup I pulled the old England stunt on him, and he fell for it, funny thing is my cycle was late and when I told him dude asked "are you pregnant? And if you are whose baby is it?" I got so pissed, I was like dude I only slept with you, he said however "you can't trust anyone these days" for me that was the final blow, never did we ever communicate again.


Love is a conquest we all wanna try
It's hilarious how once the fake Johnny was gone the real one resurfaced and I was so desperate for love that I thought ok sure let's try this again, he spat on my heart, hearts were meant to pump blood, not to bleed; he left for his ex and I was there like what the hell is wrong with me.