I never forget I was 16 years old and I find out my sister who is 14 years old had a boyfriend who was the same age has as me. When our mother found out what was going on, I was told to go on their dates with them and watch them. It wasn't a fun feeling, it was awkward and I felt so alone, knowing I didn't have a boyfriend to go on dates with. I felt jealous of their love and other couples. Seeing them kiss, cuddling one another, smiles and laughs. I have my face draining with tears. Will I ever find my true love? Why do I have to have so much rage burning up inside me? Why does my heart feel so much jealousy? I feel terrible knowing that I get these kind of feelings. I want all this negative energy to leave my body. I want to go on enjoying life as a teenager. Sometimes I just want to run away and stay missing. No matter what emotion I feel, I must move on. In a way I know God will sent me the man I love one day.