Yes! I never knew one word could change the whole meaning of existence. Its not like i needed to say yes it was more like i wanted to. I didn't know i had a burden on my shoulders until the weight was lifted off of me.

For the first time ever i felt complete. This was not because i loved him it was more like i thought i found a companion who could understand my pain and share my feelings, my responsibility. I was exhausted being the responsible one my whole life. For once i wanted someone to take my responsibility.

I felt like now i belong to someone..someone belongs to me. This feeling was great..it didn't matter who it was. I felt like i know where my future was..Where it was headed..this feeling was so new to me..i didn't know i was happy or not but it felt good.

I thought i found my home, finally. I realized i have been longing for this emotion for a very long time now. Being alone is different than being lonely. I thought this will fill the void inside me.

Well i tried, i gave a chance to myself to feel this through my heart and soul. But you know some things are better to be said, even to be heard but not to be felt. I gave my best only to understand how people and their behavior changes as time passes.

The person who has been convincing me for the past six years to get married to me is not the person whom i said yes to. I agree i don't love him but i was willing to give my hundred percent to make it work. Isn't that what arranged marriages are?

I don't know he had been acting the whole while or was i that blind to know his real side. His behavior was evident that he was judging me though he knew the real story. I agree i was disappointed but that did not hurt me which actually proves he's not the one for me.

It only took three days for me to wake up and smell the coffee. Those three days had taught me a lesson for life. I always had a pride in things i do. But this was the second time i made the wrong decision. Both the decisions were related to one major event, Marriage.

This made me think is this really what i want? Well this wasn't want i needed, this was what i wanted. This was for the society and for the family.

I knew my choice even before the flight landed. I can't pretend to be in love all my life. I can't live a lie. It was good that he showed his true colors before it was too late. Everything really happens for a reason.

I hope i find a person who accepts me the way i am along with my baggage past. I hope i do not have to ever comprise myself or put a fake smile for someone. For now i would love to believe

...if it is not an happy ending..it isn't the ending...