They say that there are angels among us.Well I believe this to be true.I have witnessed several situations where one might believe that they were contacted or helped by an angel.Sometimes these come as mere messages that relate to someone we have lost.Sometimes they come as something happening to maybe stop you from doing something without your will.I suppose sometimes it is true that we miss someone so much that we want the sang that comes on,or the coin we stumbled upon,or the old letter or picture to be them contacting us.Merely because we don't want to admit to ourselves that they are truly gone.Sometimes we can hear the voice of our loved ones in the back of our mind when we need to hear them most.So I am not sure if these things are just our mind taking over and telling us that we really need that person at that particular point in time so our mind creates what we believe to be a sign or an angel if you will.I know that on September 11,2001 I was intended to be on the American airlines flight that left Boston and hit the tower of the world trade center.However due to the fact that I was pregnant and high risk,my doctor would not clear me to fly.So I have always choosen to believe that my daughter Destiny was my guardian angel even though she had not been born yet.And even though I haven't seen an apparition or anything however when I seem to need my best friend the most I can hear his voice in my head,or I will find an old letter from him,or a photo of the two of us from before he passed away.Now I am not crazy I know that it is my subconscience mind creating these memories at these times.And I beieve it has something to do with the fact that I didn't get to say goodbye,nor was I ready to say goodbye.I think that when we get messages or signs from those we have lost,it is part of our grieving process.And the fact that we want to hold onto them forever.The mind and one's subconscience can be two very strong and powerful forces.Both hold onto memories,feelings,and emotions from each episode in our lives.So I can't say whether or not I believe in the physical being of an angel,but I drfinately believe in our minds ability to conjour those we need at that moment.So that it appears we are being visited by our very own special angel.Whatever helps us and pushes us forward to carry on regardless of our grief and pain and suffering.Because sometimes the alternative is someone you love losing you,and then they would have to find a way to grieve.
© Carolyn Leonelli