You ever hear of survivors guilt? well if you haven't its when something tragic happens, and someone or multiple people you love or just know don't survive. However for some odd reason you do and you have know clue why or even how. Well I feel that way sometimes but its not a normal survivors guilt its more like a why did I survive this tragic thing that happened only to me????? Sometimes I think I would've preferred to have had my life taken rather than have everything but my life taken. does that make me suicidal for thinking that??? Sometimes it doesn't feel like I'm really alive. I know I am but I don't feel that way, like my body is here but my mind is somewhere else. I survived this tragic thing but it left me damaged. Can this damage truly be repaired?? They teach us to survive all types of things. But how do you survive survivors guilt? I watched everyone break from this thing that happened to me, But why didn't I break? or am I really broken and not just damged?