Pouring shower increase a pain that burns within, like acid rain leaving a hole. that grows by the minute. Nothing i do can fill this hole inside of my soul, all the sweet loving feeling is been suck deep within this dark abyss. As a bitter sweet feelings spread throughout my body, i quiver all over as i get goose bump. Sadness is my everyday, all the things that bring me joy i can even do any more. Whats come over me, am walking with a numbness inside my heart. I cry myself to sleep, with a cold chills rushing through me. l can remember the last time i felt the taste of sweet honey sweetness that sweeten my heart flow within my vein spread throughout my mind body an souls. O where does this sadness come from, no one truelly no's. It as attache its self in my mind, slowly conquering all my brains if this happen this feeling will have full control over all of me. Now I lay down my body feel like a 2000 ton, unmoveable unnoticeable i have lost the will to fight . It become very difficult for me too take a shower, am not dirty it just am going through a something even i can't seem to understand wants happening to me. Through it all i try hard to do my every day, function. One minute am full of life an vigor, the next minute am in a deep stuper were am falling deep within a dark abyss. All i see is darkness all arounds me, its like walk in a dark room. l bump into a furniture scream in pain, how do i get rid of this bittersweet feeling. So i went to see a therapy, he said that am suffering from depression. She said that half american suffer from this toxic bitter sweet feeling. So let honey rain shower pour down within my realm, sending sweetness spread throughout my mind has sweet wine flow within fill up the dark abyss. sweetness overflow first time in a long time, i feel whole. So lets gather around tell someone about how you feel when your in this bitter sweet talk about it your family members. Tell them that this feeling, make you feel dead inside.