Something holds me back, doesn't allow me to take the first step. I feel tangled and tied up with my perceptions and presumptions. Yes, there are prying eyes of outsiders...their eagerness to pass harsh comments, to spread a rumor, but more than that I have my own hesitation to not own my world. I judge myself more critically than anyone...I have this whole scenario in my head where I play out the future. If I take this responsibility and if I make a mistake, how she's gonna react, what he is gonna say, and how they are gonna blame. All these overthinking in the negative spectrum, deter me from taking the first step.

Sometimes more than any outsider, we become our own enemy and unknowingly we kill our desires, suppress our abilities, judge ourselves too harshly, and thus sabotage self-growth.

© Rashmita Dhungel 💕