When I was three and half, with the brain damaged, due to phalenjities prolonged sickness of phaleningitis in subconscious mind Hidden straight like l didnot know that i have become stuttering from the Age of 4 learn to speak at the age of 5 was very prominent he rarely speak fear i was a little slow and have severe fever and phalinjities in subconscious Hidden straight like that never wanted to write on this topic my childhood and could not tell not interested in anything or studies in science biology chemistry I was never comfortable or hesitate to talk or discuss because l felt why am l talking about that had already happened Hi I am Rameez Rahman Sorry don't mind Let start again.This is a story that have wanted to tell someone for a long time l have always been scared by judging and imitation l always listen to my heart and fear of getting upset as personal attack and lose self confidence and self esteem and confidence any excitement so and i am thinking about my future life if anyone found that truth in the open in front of everyone can't hide having word in your mind that you can utter out the fast expression that come to my mind I don't what will they think and shocked he never stutter with other people was very shy and nervous also began to cry and tears helpless sweat broke out over her whole body his head still lowered and nervous and fear of getting upset and personal attack also loose self esteem self confident confidence the life he know that i have stammering making fun always followed that i can't affort to change in anyone would change l can't get up 4:30 in the morning I can't take the bus at my stop my bus comes early so I took the bus at TNT career company The morning l woke up were more then super excited and wanted to go to school and don't know what was school like and also don't where do i go to the bus Pakistani boys meet regularly someone began to pused me at the bus looking my name them they made fun of my word That They didn't recognize they never listen i glance gasped and stared aghast of i was what he was going to say he doesn't stammer with other people fear of judging to get upset imitation as personal attack that also losses confidence self confidence self esteem like inferiority complex of fairness to say Fair Fair because of her looks.When l was in school was in morning in school l used to roam looking up mute and couldn't speak at recess in and school and when I was in class 1 they began pinch me at toilet and bus they did the same thing again by going and gasped doesn't have one friend to talk and help him say like let's her go huge stared shyly by getting down from the school bus to home from had anger issues how on earth could they say that they can do that felt embracement used to cry in tears flowed from her eyes in helpless anger rise inside me at home i just sit at the corner and l was nerves in a cell and to would not utter a word properly repeatedly always repeated words and could not prolongation could not speak and talk clearly.And or as his he continue moose make her mute 2 weeks shy manner made her hesitates
and talked very little at bus they all are so mean to turning out to me make fun if i were you will be sitting along i mean i'd like be totally ashamed don't sit along why don't you sit in the toilet and class 2 my teacher told me that he will suffer in higher class unfortunately when i was at class 4 some boys used to beat and pinch I can't beat and pinch me at when i was at class 5 and i was fearless and i led was bare on fear and l felt while I was with other people l never stutter with other people. while coming from home to school l Wanted to talk with adult who will listen one many boys in other or junior class boys didn't want to talk jibe and jeer what did you say tease me fun and laughed at my word Could not able to speak not deaf because of bad experience of stammering put her own ambitions on the back and was shocked and felt betrayal and behave erratically and frustrated also emotionally traumatized and Began to lose hope and lives a fairly isolated life and has taken to to ease his loneliness. Intoxicated She...