I don't know how to explain it. Like as if the ground suddenly disappeared and then gravity takes over. Do you ever feel like that? Like the sun will never shine. Or the stars are hidden behind the clouds. Do you ever feel that? I sometimes get lost in my thoughts, so self absorbed, that only I feel like this. I guess that is the problem. It is so self isolating. That keeping it to yourself means no-one else gets hurt. But they do. Especially if they ever feel like this too. This cycle of life. The self questioning. The desire that isn't right. The scars show my shame. Not everyone has a visible mark. Sometimes it is deeper. Where things go unseen. So if you do ever feel like this. I guess that means there are at least two of us. Maybe more. Isn't this page just a magnet for my thoughts? You're the sponge. Substrate and enzyme. So many analogies. So do you ever have so many questions? Your mind racing, you can't stop thinking. If you are talking you can't stop speaking. Like you need to get everything out before time runs out. Like now. Can you feel the panic? In my writing. Like I can't stop. Like if I stop. I stop existing. Do you ever feel that? Do you ever feel like nothing matters? Do you ever fe…

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