Ohh how do I ask him for money? I think we've ran out of maize meal. His car stopped by the gate playing that loud miserable music. My 5 year old daughter ran to him. "daddy daddy daddy!!! She shouted.

I wanted to stop her but 5 months old son was crying and I had to breastfeed him. He came to my 4 roomed house to check on his son. He then layed on the bed and threw R500 on my face.

He then grabbed my hair and pulled it hard. I couldn't scream my daughter was in the other room. I told him to stop.... To stop hurting me while sobbing. He let me go. I went to cook after cooking I went to bath my 5 year old daughter.

"has daddy hurt you again mother" she asked.... She has seen her father hurt me. She has seen him do many things to me. "I asked a question mother? She asked again... But this time she noticed my tears.... She wiped them... Away..

I was doing grade 9 when I met him. Mom didn't have a job and we had to eat. I was her only child. My dad and my twin brother died in a car accident. Since then mom couldn't continue working.

I was 15 and he was 30. Mom called him my blesser. Mom refused to eat the food he bought. She kicked me out when I told her that I was pregnant. I had no where to go.
My only family died because of me.

Mom died because of stress I gave her..I stressed her. When she heard that I was pregnant again she died. I couldn't go to her funeral.

His wife once came to talk to me. She looked at my kids and said "no wonder he is always here. You are beautiful and your kids are beautiful too. He doesn't have time for me and my kids anymore" she said while shearing a tear.

I didn't say anything I kept quiet. My daughter asked me" why was that woman crying mother? ". How do I tell her that... That woman is her stepmother... How do I tell her that I stole that woman's husband.. How do I tell him that her father is someone's husband.. That he has a family beside us.

I had to lie to her everyday. My future is over.

#stop woman abuse.
#stop rape
#help the ladies.