I, have tried over and over and over again to find that one person who I can talk to, be myself with, love, hold hands with, someone who understands me. And I have failed over and over again and I dont know why. I mean I have the looks now, the qualities, im nice, im protective, I have boundaries, I care, I even have the body now if that matters, I have a personality. Yet it feels like no one is for me, sometimes I miss my ex and not because I miss her, its because I miss having someone. Every single talking stage I have had has failed.
Now I feel lonely. I love being alone, but, feeling lonely is so much more different. Im developing talents which I think are amazing. Im not a boring person. Im starting to think im not the problem, I dont wanna put blame onto others, but people are immature. I feel like ive turned out to be so straight foward and honest that, everyone else seems the opposite for me. Its like they are attracted to the fake and dishonesty.
The friends I thought I had are fake, the love and friendships ive found are all fake, when will I meet someone genuine? Its hard to find someone that’s normal and genuine now. I need to take a break.