It was monday morning when i had met him for the first time in our school library. I felt that my heart beats faster than before. I think this is what they called Love At First Sight.

He was sitting behind me reading a book. I stared at his handsome face and longing to hold his hands. Wanting to sneak out and steal a kiss to his kissable lips. I couldn't take my eyes off of him with a smile but he turned his head and our eyes met.

When her lips parted to speak, i dreamed to plant a kiss on it. "Anything miss?" he asked. His voice was just like the greatest symphony that makes me smile. "A..a..nothing" i replied. I can't understand my nervousness syndrome. I acted like a stupid obsessive girl.

At the second day, i sat on the same place where i was yesterday. I waited for him patiently until the school bell rang. I always went to that place hoping that i will met him again but i waited for nothing.

Many days had passed but my feelings for him are always here so i searched every rooms in our school campus and finally, i found him. He's the same grade level as me but different section. I went to our homeroom teacher and plead to transfer me in that section and she agreed.

Weeks had passed, finally i knew his name, he is Clifford. We're now friends that often talk to each other and eat our launch together. He also thaught me in solving mathematical problems because i'm not that good in solvings. I really hated Math but it's opposite to him.

I couldn't control my feelings for him anymore so i planned to confess. I invited him to the restaurant and ate dinner together. He was staring at the waitresses since he came so I tried to talked to him. His eyes still meditating to them with a smile so I looked at again whom he's looking at. A girl(waitress) came and sat beside him.

"Clifford, i think it's time to tell you this. I know that it's inconvenient for a girl to confess her feelings but it's better to tell you this than to hide it anymore. Can i be your girlfriend? I asked.

The girl beside him was shocked.

"I'm sorry. I already have a girlfriend" he replied and hold that girl's hand.

"I only treated you as a friend. A good friend that I ever knew in my whole life. I'm sorry", he added.

🎶🎶I got way too much time to be this heart. Somebody help it's getting worse. What do you do with a broken heart.🎶🎶

That girl is my younger sister who helped me to dressed up but she didn't know whom i confess.

I thought that she came to cheer me up but I was wrong. They supposed to have a date to that restaurant and to introduce me as his friend.

"I'm sorry sister" she said.

I was standing alone, totally broken. The thorns of the roses hurt my palm. I accidentally dropped the wine glass, sending it crashing to the floor, shattering into thousands shards.

Why did i became what i never wanted to become? I just end up hurting myself because of this feelings.
If i didn't confess, maybe we're all here together and our friendship is not over.

🎶🎶I drive circles under street lights. Nothing seems to clear my mind. I can't forget.🎶🎶

🎶🎶It's inside my head so i drive chasing Malibu nights. Nothing seems to heal my mind. I can't forget.🎶🎶
© Carolyn Buyawe